The joy of losing friends...

[ImagineRepublicCity]

This may seem kinda weird, but I honestly have no other way to describe it.

So I have the tendency to talk to a lot of people online which I meet via video games because that's usually what I do, and I've been doing this since like, January, most of my friends are from a video game or something and we talk a lot and stuff, yeah, that's p standard.

Lately however, in the past 2 weeks, about 4 of them just deleted me. They like, got mad or pissed and just deleted me.

I'm not going to bother explaining it, unless it's necessary because it takes far too long, but basically, I've been really upset about it and for all except one, I really want them to talk to me or say something to me but at the same time, I don't.

I kind of...like...the situation I'm in, this "Please talk to me I have no friends >.<" kinda thing. The "please pity me" kind of thing. I don't like it, I really want to be able to talk to my friends again, but I do like it at the same time.

-urgh- Does anyone feel like this sometimes?

[StoppingTom]

I kind of get what you mean, I had felt the same way after my online friends from another site basically sided with my ex over me, and they all just stopped talking to me. I don't know if it will help you at all, but what worked for me was finding new friends (on here!!) and just kind of realizing (in my case, idk your situation) that these people aren't my friends anymore for a reason and no one will throw a pity-party for me so I should do something.

I'm sure anyone here would love to be your friend as well :D

[ImagineRepublicCity]

I kind of get what you mean, I had felt the same way after my online friends from another site basically sided with my ex over me, and they all just stopped talking to me. I don't know if it will help you at all, but what worked for me was finding new friends (on here!!) and just kind of realizing (in my case, idk your situation) that these people aren't my friends anymore for a reason and no one will throw a pity-party for me so I should do something.

I'm sure anyone here would love to be your friend as well :D

Well I was more so talking about the fact that I'm actually not too bummed about it but wouldn't mind losing more friends like idk, this is weird.

[StoppingTom]

Oh, alright, I think I understand. Do you think it's because they are online, and so losing them doesn't feel as personal? How long have you known them for?

[ImagineRepublicCity]

Oh, alright, I think I understand. Do you think it's because they are online, and so losing them doesn't feel as personal? How long have you known them for?

Uhmm...1 for about 5 months, another for about 3 months, then 1-2 months and 3 weeks...

Like, I really care for these people, don't get me wrong, but I feel like I might just want other peoples pity so it's like "Oh look at me I have nooooo friends care for me"

[StoppingTom]

So you want attention, and this is a way to get it? That's not a bad thing, by the way, despite the negative connotations. I know you said you don't really know/understand, but it's worth trying to figure out.