Depressed at night

[Jables]

At night when I go to bed I am very restless. Mainly because I get deep phases of depression at night ad only at night. It seems like its only at night. It started recently . I am almost positive it's because I do not want to live with my dad. I want to live with my mom. At my dads house I go to school in a small town. If I were to live to my moan I would live in the city and go to a big high school. The high school in te town is very boring as kind of depressing. I forgot to mention I lived with my mom up until last year. I really want to move back in but school starts next weeks and myy dad would be very unhappy. I need to tell him within two days or stay one more year before so can move back in with my mom. I will defineatly move in with my mom next year cause I have one whole year to tell my dad but I'm worried that I'd I stay at my dads I will continue to fleet these depressing feelings. I have a history of depression and whenever I get these phases at night I can only think about dying and all I can do is cry. Also when I'm at my dad i live in an acreage so I never get to see my friends during the summer that much and my dad usually makes me work everyday. When I'm at my dads I don't get to be a kid and have a social life except at school and when I'm at y mons house onthe weekends and i get to see my friends which is a problem. I don't know what to do. I imagine my dad would not like this yet my mom would I am would be happier I'm sure. But I don't know. Help

[Miserabilia]

I think you should bring it up to them but not in a selfish way; if you explain how you feel they can decide what to do about it because afterall their parenting is thier choice. I know how you feel about being more depressed at night; I recomend trying techniques normaly used for people with insomnia, that really helped for me to fall asleep more happily.

[Dalcourt]

Well, it's worse at night cuz then you get to rest you are alone and have less.distraction...that's why it seems your depression peaks at night. it is pretty normal.
As for your problem...just talk to your Dad. I mean if staying with him depresses you so much there's no use in staying one whole year. Tell him he will understand...
I'm sure your Dad wouldn't want you to have all these depressions and bad feelings just because you have to live with him.
So talk to him and talk to your mom...that's really all you can do. it's not selfish...