Avenida105
August 5th, 2015, 01:43 AM
Long story short, my best friend and I have been through a lot of changes in our lives, from being little straightedge freshmen in HS to becoming official raver attendees and the inconspicuous stoners. Same sports in HS, same classes, we got to the same college and we dorm together and the only difference between us is that I'm bi, more of a 4 on the kinsey scale and he is straight.
So once we hooked up and it went down to oral sex, I started the whole situation because I was cross faded, which not an excuse because I mean I was conscious of my decisions. It all goes well and we just don't say anything The second time it was again in our dorm room under the same situation but this time before we finished we stopped and agreed it wasn't a healthy thing to do, because I mean we are not 12 and just discovered our bodies, we know what we are. So we say, let's never talk about it and never do it again.
Now it has been about two months and we go to a festival together and we do drugs and in the high is still strong after the festival for about 3 hours, complete euphoria if you know what I mean. So as we leave the place he hugs me and says that its so we don't loose each other, because the exit had to handle 100,000 leaving the place. Once we are out he continues to do it and occasionally says I just don't want to get separated from you. It looked so gay, that we got called faggots from a car and I told him hey we should stop and he said he didn't care because we are best friends, so at this point we are walking everything is pretty, we are waiting for our ride to the hotel and occasionally leans on me. At this point I get the vibe of what is going on.
So we get back, we smoke two joints in the balcony to enjoy the roll from earlier, and we just talk about life stuff, we go back inside and look at pictures of the event and we do that in the same bed, legs intertwined his arm around me, basically the definition of cuddling. So at this point I actually feel bad because I'm the bi and I felt like I was just taking advantage of a straight person, but I mean if I was conscious of all of this and we did the exact amount of everything and I am 4" (10cm shorter) in shorter height it would be more than obvious that his body was just as conscious as mine. He then tells me he doesn't think he is completely straight and I mention the kinsey scale and he goes maybe I'm a one or a two and goes to his bed and its quite so I ask, does this mean you want me to come over and he says yes. I get down to do what I like, but this time it was weird because the other two times he just wore earphones and was quiet and this time he was even holding me and hugging and he was also doing work instead of just me sucking, plus he kept on saying stuff like rest, it feels good whatever. So it all ends and we don't talk about it again.
Yeah ok, so I got lucky with my best friend, be happy, but I just have so many questions.
1. Is my friend actually not straight and he was trying to come out, or in this case what we took was so euphoric that it made him more open for a moment?
2. Am I just being used to experiment with because he knows I'm bi
3. Should I bring it up this time, even though it can be really awkward considering he said what he said about being ok with male to male sassy moments?
4. Should I just not bring it up unless it happens one more time?
5. What happens if I actually liked the attention?
6. Besides the obvious what could go really well/wrong?
I feel like he might just be really confused because his best friend is bisexual his sister is lesbian. When he said that he "wasn't sure [he] wasn't completely straight" I felt bad, like maybe its my fault he is having doubts on his sexuality, I mean we are both 19 so the whole lets experiment phase is over.
The worse thing is that I don't know what to do because now I still see him as my best friend but he also has the qualities that I look for in a guy so its like I don't want to take a biased position on this matter because I love this guy like my brother.
Any thoughts?
So once we hooked up and it went down to oral sex, I started the whole situation because I was cross faded, which not an excuse because I mean I was conscious of my decisions. It all goes well and we just don't say anything The second time it was again in our dorm room under the same situation but this time before we finished we stopped and agreed it wasn't a healthy thing to do, because I mean we are not 12 and just discovered our bodies, we know what we are. So we say, let's never talk about it and never do it again.
Now it has been about two months and we go to a festival together and we do drugs and in the high is still strong after the festival for about 3 hours, complete euphoria if you know what I mean. So as we leave the place he hugs me and says that its so we don't loose each other, because the exit had to handle 100,000 leaving the place. Once we are out he continues to do it and occasionally says I just don't want to get separated from you. It looked so gay, that we got called faggots from a car and I told him hey we should stop and he said he didn't care because we are best friends, so at this point we are walking everything is pretty, we are waiting for our ride to the hotel and occasionally leans on me. At this point I get the vibe of what is going on.
So we get back, we smoke two joints in the balcony to enjoy the roll from earlier, and we just talk about life stuff, we go back inside and look at pictures of the event and we do that in the same bed, legs intertwined his arm around me, basically the definition of cuddling. So at this point I actually feel bad because I'm the bi and I felt like I was just taking advantage of a straight person, but I mean if I was conscious of all of this and we did the exact amount of everything and I am 4" (10cm shorter) in shorter height it would be more than obvious that his body was just as conscious as mine. He then tells me he doesn't think he is completely straight and I mention the kinsey scale and he goes maybe I'm a one or a two and goes to his bed and its quite so I ask, does this mean you want me to come over and he says yes. I get down to do what I like, but this time it was weird because the other two times he just wore earphones and was quiet and this time he was even holding me and hugging and he was also doing work instead of just me sucking, plus he kept on saying stuff like rest, it feels good whatever. So it all ends and we don't talk about it again.
Yeah ok, so I got lucky with my best friend, be happy, but I just have so many questions.
1. Is my friend actually not straight and he was trying to come out, or in this case what we took was so euphoric that it made him more open for a moment?
2. Am I just being used to experiment with because he knows I'm bi
3. Should I bring it up this time, even though it can be really awkward considering he said what he said about being ok with male to male sassy moments?
4. Should I just not bring it up unless it happens one more time?
5. What happens if I actually liked the attention?
6. Besides the obvious what could go really well/wrong?
I feel like he might just be really confused because his best friend is bisexual his sister is lesbian. When he said that he "wasn't sure [he] wasn't completely straight" I felt bad, like maybe its my fault he is having doubts on his sexuality, I mean we are both 19 so the whole lets experiment phase is over.
The worse thing is that I don't know what to do because now I still see him as my best friend but he also has the qualities that I look for in a guy so its like I don't want to take a biased position on this matter because I love this guy like my brother.
Any thoughts?