The C-word

[Karkat]

Hahahaha wouldn't it be funny if I died of natural causes and not a drug overdose or by suicide?

Anyways


Um

Yeah.

I've been really sick lately. I can't confirm anything, but I also can't deny anything.

I have a significant amount of symptoms that match up with lymphoma.

A large part of me is calm. Lymphoma has a pretty good prognosis as far as cancers go. I'm fairly at peace with my own mortality.

But a large part of me is also worried. I'm poor, I have no way to afford treatment or tests- I feel like I'm more likely to die from complications one day because I deliberately put off going to get a workup.
I'm starting to get a new perspective on life. I'm still depressed at times, but I'm starting to gain a little more... Desire to live.

But then a large part of me just looks at my life right now and prays I get advanced stage cancer and die ASAP.

But enough about how I feel about it all, that's not really why I made this post

Do you guys know of anyone with lymphoma? How did they tell? What was the major tipoff? How are they doing?

[Plane And Simple]

Wow I'm So sorry Ren. I really really hope it's some minor stuff and not lymphoma, I really do. Hope everything goes fine and you actually don't have it.

[ImCoolBeans]

Have you seen a doctor? Until you do I wouldn't jump to any rash or extreme conclusions -- it's easy to work yourself up into thinking like that. Best of luck and I hope all goes well.

[Karkat]

Wow I'm So sorry Ren. I really really hope it's some minor stuff and not lymphoma, I really do. Hope everything goes fine and you actually don't have it.

Have you seen a doctor? Until you do I wouldn't jump to any rash or extreme conclusions -- it's easy to work yourself up into thinking like that. Best of luck and I hope all goes well.

Thanks guys, I hope it's nothing as well, but honestly unless I have immediate reason to go to the doctor... I can't afford it.

But thank you for your best wishes

[Riley2015]

It's not really a good idea to diagnose yourself. If you're that concerned you should see a dr

[Karkat]

It's not really a good idea to diagnose yourself. If you're that concerned you should see a dr

The doctors in this shit stain of a town have told me that it wasn't a big deal that I attempted suicide in January and basically just told me to go back to work and stop complaining.

I won't see a doctor if I'm on my deathbed and these idiots are the only ones who can help me. I hope I do die, in fact.

[commikid]

The only advice I could give buddy would be as some others have said to go and see a Dr as to self diagnose is never a good thing and can be very inaccurate as I have found from past experiences. Please don't stress and try seek medical advice :)