Messed up family life!!!!

[Just JT]

Think this is like my first real post here, idk
But my family stuff is so fucked up right now and I just don't know wTf to do anymore
I've been trying so hard to do better, and I do fora a bit, then I completly blow it
I'm at the point now it's like I got no more options left at all, and decisions r guna be made for me, and that's that, and I don't like that, and I don't know what to do about it

[Freckles]

No idea what is happening. It would help to have some more details.

[Just JT]

I know, sorry, I just have a real bad habit of making real bad decisions
I act out and cause problems and as a result I am probably going to be removed from where i like, a foster home, and placed somewhere really bad
I don't want to leave where I am, cause they are really cool people, think I just pulled the last straw last night

[Reg_]

I know, sorry, I just have a real bad habit of making real bad decisions
I act out and cause problems and as a result I am probably going to be removed from where i like, a foster home, and placed somewhere really bad
I don't want to leave where I am, cause they are really cool people, think I just pulled the last straw last night

What did you do if you dont mind me asking

[Just JT]

That's a long story, not an easy one to explain, but short version I got in a fight, and although I felt I was in the right, and made me feel good, I went to far, hurt the kid pretty good, I feel like an asshole for doing it

[Dalcourt]

Yeah as the other posters said you are very vague and all. If we don't understand what's going on giving helpful advice is difficult.
So if you don't mind could you be more specific??

It may be a long story but if you feel it had such grave consequences you should explain a bit more.

[Just JT]

I get if, I just don't want to get into real specifics, but this other kid, I let use my iPad and iPhone, and he went to some sites he's not allowed to go to, and basically I got into trouble for it, it's not porn or anything like that

I think it comes down to is me being able to control my anger and rage, I felt like he violated my trust, cause I did t know what he was doing, and he shoulda told me or something
The problem is also, this is how I react when I get pissed off, especially this time, cause my foster parents and I were really starting to get along real well and this really messed things up
It's more complicated than that, kinda embarrassing to
Does that help?

[Dalcourt]

Hm, okay...so it's basically two things you talk about. this kid and your foster parents??
The kid used your stuff for doin wrong. You got mad... understandable but what did you do hurt that kid? So you have to work on your anger management I'd say.
And your foster parents? What's the deal here? Are they mad cuz of what happened with that kid... your anger issues? Did you explain what the other person did. Violating your trust I mean...it's important to explain this to them without getting mad, right?
And if you have problems with controling your anger you should talk them and work something out. And well if it's really that bad maybe with the help of a professional??
So yeah ... I can only give you this nonspecific answer as I completely lack the background of your story and problems.

[Just JT]

Yes, I beat the shit outa him, and I do have anger rage issues, I know that and I'm working on that, but I failed at it yesterday....
My fosters are pissed at me for what I did to him, they understand my anger, but say my behavior did not justify my actions
I am in therapy, take meds to, it is a trust thing, they do believe what I say, cause I'd never lie to them, I did it, and I'm kissed at myself now
The other kids parents as thinkin of pressing charges against me, and it really scares me to think what's going to happen
I'm not trying to be vague, I just don't know what to do

I really want to stay where I am, I've really want to stay here, but I'm really scared about what's going to happen if I can't

And I really feel bad for the kid i beat up, I lost it...

Double post merged. -Abhorrence

[Dalcourt]

Hm, well I guess now there isn't much left you can do, right? What's done is done. If you hit his other guy so bad that his parent's want to press charges there's nothing you can really do. It may sound scary but how scary it really gets depends on your age, on if you have a record already etc.
If you are doing therapy and take meds that will all be in favor of you as you work on your problem already, you know.
It is justified that you foster parents are pissed cuz they get in trouble too when their kids don't behave.
So yeah try to stay positive and keep working on your anger issues to show your foster parents and others that you are working on yourselfand want to get better. Have you tried to talk to this other kid to apologise??

That's all I can think of atm...I known it may not be that useful but it kinda worked for me in a similar situation.

[Just JT]

Yeah, we did all talk today, I did say sorry, and they kinda know me and stuff idk, maybe it'll work out ok
I'll try, thanks

[Dalcourt]

okay, so I really hope everything works out for you. good luck :)

[Just JT]

Don't know peeps here to shell, guna be out touch for a bit
Goin into a hospital diversion program for about 2 weeks, keep me in mind ok?
I'll be ok, and back...