I've finally decided to talk about it

[soroku]

I'm depressed. I've never told anyone or talked to anyone about it. I've never seen a therapist or had any medication or anything, and I'm homeschooled so I can't talk to a school counselor or anything. I've tried talking about it with my parents before, but they didn't believe me. They thought I was faking it. My mom was clinically depressed and even anorexic when she was my age and still battles with depression now so I have no I idea why she doesn't believe me.

I don't know why I'm depressed. I can't explain it. I have a pretty okay life. There's just something wrong with me. I just feel cold and empty and worthless and a waste of space. And nobody understands and nobody cares. I feel broken. It hurts. I cry everyday and nobody notices or asks if I'm okay. I've even been cutting for about six months now, but nobody notices or cares. I want to get better, I want to get help, but it's just getting worse. I've started thinking about suicide almost every day now. I feel like I'm falling farther and farther into darkness and very soon I won't be able to get back out.

[Croconaw]

You can talk to people here. We will all be happy to get you through the difficult times. You're brave for posting as it can be hard due to fear. :)

[Just JT]

Yeah, I'll chat with ya, talk ya no?
I'm sure once u start talkin bout some stuff, other stuff will become clearer
I'm usually on, at some point of the day, so hit me up ok?

[Abhorrence]

People here can support you. It's a difficult thing to go through, feeling trapped and like there's no way out but it gets better. No matter how dark it all is now, life isn't always that way. You've just got to fight through, you're battling an illness that needs your willpower and strength to beat. It would be really handy if you could get some professional help but it doesn't seem like it's possible at the moment. Maybe you could try contacting a doctor by yourself? They should refer you to help, although I'm not sure if you need parental permission for that.