I just don't know any more.

[IrvingWolfe]

I have sucessfully managed to confuse myself in a way that I never thought possible. Part of me is screaming to look into a sex change, and that I would be happier as a girl, but the other part of me feels like I'm being a fucking moron.

I was born male, and have identified that way for the past 18 years of my life, but now that I have been thinking about it more, I'm starting to feel like I'd be happier as a girl. I have so much I feel and want to say, but I just don't know how to put it in words.

Every time I try to find something that may help me decide one way or the other,or look for information, I eventually end up finding something that's been dominated by transphobic people who say I'm just going to be seen as a worthless fetishest fucktoy.

I don't even know if I can consider myself transsexual or anything like that right now. I don't know which end is up in my life any more

[Desuetude]

I mean, getting a sex change is a lonnng process. You can't just go to the doctors and book an appointment for surgery. First you'd need hormones, then have to go through transgender specialists who make sure this is definitely whats best for you.

Think about it for a couple of months. Attempt to cross dress and ask yourself if you'd be happier with a womans body. I understand that cross dressing is harder for MTF (male to females) than FTM's, I guess its more socially acceptable for 'girls' to wear gender neutral/masculine clothes than it is 'guys'.

Research some more about it, maybe find some local trans* groups near you either online or irl. Bring trans means you don't feel comfortable in your biological body so focus on that. Do the parts of you that are specifically male and associated with masculinity disgust you and make you feel uncomfortable? Or maybe it's just kind of a "its always greener on the other side" kind of mindset. I can't tell you what you're feeling but you should definitely research up on it and think about it for a couple months. Don't rush anything.

I hope that was some kind of helpful advice, feel free to contact me if you need someone to talk things through with.

[Hudor]

Stop thinking about it I guess. Your gender and sexuality are parts of your life but not the biggest. I'm sure there's a lot you want to do and a lot for you to do. As I've realized, it's not healthy to dwell on anything too much. Everything that feels natural to you is what defines you.
I feel things will sort themselves out better if you give them some time.

[Laibachd]

Take time to think about it, you don't want to do anything you might regret later; just be completely sure before doing anything.

[Andyyy95]

I personally don't think a sex change is worth it; it's far too much hassle, and in the end you might even regret it...
I'm sure if you give it time, things will naturally work out for you!