Tony X
June 16th, 2015, 11:42 AM
I'm 17, and for almost 4 years I've known deep down in myself that I'm gay. However, I'm not publicly gay.
I was attracted to guys, I watched gay-porn, and I masturbated and found pleasure from gay porn and gay fantasies.
But, I've just realized that I'm Bi.
I've recently fallen in love with a girl. She's smart, interesting, and very pretty. And she arouses me. We train together (sports team) and I see her every day. Recently, we started texting/snapchatting a lot, but we talk in real life too, just not as much cause even though we practice together, we're always busy (and there's ppl around).
And I think about her every second of my day, and I think about kissing her, going on dates, etc. This is not a -crush-. I'm in love.
(A lot of personal information is about to be told, so you are warned).
Also, another reason why I think that I must be Bi is because whenever I've masturbated for about a week now, I look up gay porn or just fantasize in my head to get turned on, but when I'm about to "climax", my mind completely changes the image of guys from to the girl that I'm in love with. I picture me having sex with her, I picture her naked. And I actually felt a LOT of pleasure that I haven't felt in a long time.
I don't think I'm "confused", but I know I'm definitely Bi.
I was attracted to guys, I watched gay-porn, and I masturbated and found pleasure from gay porn and gay fantasies.
But, I've just realized that I'm Bi.
I've recently fallen in love with a girl. She's smart, interesting, and very pretty. And she arouses me. We train together (sports team) and I see her every day. Recently, we started texting/snapchatting a lot, but we talk in real life too, just not as much cause even though we practice together, we're always busy (and there's ppl around).
And I think about her every second of my day, and I think about kissing her, going on dates, etc. This is not a -crush-. I'm in love.
(A lot of personal information is about to be told, so you are warned).
Also, another reason why I think that I must be Bi is because whenever I've masturbated for about a week now, I look up gay porn or just fantasize in my head to get turned on, but when I'm about to "climax", my mind completely changes the image of guys from to the girl that I'm in love with. I picture me having sex with her, I picture her naked. And I actually felt a LOT of pleasure that I haven't felt in a long time.
I don't think I'm "confused", but I know I'm definitely Bi.