VirtualLouie
June 6th, 2015, 04:13 PM
Hi there!
So, around two and a half months ago I met this person on Tinder - we spoke on there for a few days. He lives around ninety minutes away from me by train, which costs £12.60 one-way.
We met each other for the first time in Central London on a Saturday; I instantly knew that he was the right person for me. We got on very well, even though it was slightly awkward because I had never really been out in public with another guy before, so hugging and stuff was difficult for me as I still didn't feel comfortable with my sexuality at that time. On that day, he asked me if I wanted to date him - obviously I said yes; even though we had only met each other once, I knew that I wanted to spend a lot more time with him and experience life together. On that day, he rang his mum and asked her if I could stay around his house for a week the following week, as it was the Easter Holidays; she said yes! I was extremely surprised, but happy that I would be able to spend a whole week with him as we could get to know each other more and be more intimate.
Even though I liked the sound of staying around his house for a week, I felt extremely nervous asking my mother if it was okay because she didn't even know that I was gay. I was committed to trying to make me and him work, so I came out to my mother two days after meeting him - she took it extremely well, she said that she just wants me to happy. So once I came out, I asked her if I could stay around his house, once again, she agreed, however she said that she had to take me because "it's weird that I am staying around his house for a week after only meeting him once, and also from the internet". I was extremely nervous about meeting him again, and also his family - I was not used to going around someone's house as I have bad confidence problems and hate meeting and talking to new people.
All in all it went well; so well that I ended up staying for two weeks!
After that two weeks we regularly spoke by text and Skype - even though I missed him on the days that we were apart, I got through it.
Now... It has been two months since we met, and I am starting to get worried. We both dropped out of our exams because we felt like we were not going to do so well, and are both looking for an Apprenticeship. He has interviewed for a place at the Civil Service which pays great money, and is very likely to get the job as he said it went extremely well; he finds out whether he got the job later this month. And then there is me - tons of replies, however no confidence to go to the interviews, and have no direction or idea on what I want to do with my life, so even when I get replies to apprenticeships that I have applied for, I don't reply to the majority because I am too scared of change and have no idea what I want to do with my life. I really have no idea what to do with myself at this point - I am scared that when we both have apprenticeships we will hardly get to see each other, he has promised that we will see each other every weekend, or at least every other weekend, however I don't know if I will be able to stand being away from him for that long of a period. I am trying to hold off finding anything for as long as possible so I can spend as much time as possible with him, however, the inevitable is going to happen, where we can only see each other for small periods of times, with a lot larger intervals between the meetings as we have been doing for the last two months. He is basically the only thing in my life right now, and I am scared of my depression getting a lot worse if I can't see him on a regular basis.
I have probably missed out on a lot of details, I haven't even read over what I have said - Sorry for it being too long; I hope you can take the time to read it all.
Please reply with any suggestions or advice you could give me, or any details that you want to know.
Also, please do private message me if you want to chat with me, because I really want to talk to new people :D
Thank you!
Louie :cool:
So, around two and a half months ago I met this person on Tinder - we spoke on there for a few days. He lives around ninety minutes away from me by train, which costs £12.60 one-way.
We met each other for the first time in Central London on a Saturday; I instantly knew that he was the right person for me. We got on very well, even though it was slightly awkward because I had never really been out in public with another guy before, so hugging and stuff was difficult for me as I still didn't feel comfortable with my sexuality at that time. On that day, he asked me if I wanted to date him - obviously I said yes; even though we had only met each other once, I knew that I wanted to spend a lot more time with him and experience life together. On that day, he rang his mum and asked her if I could stay around his house for a week the following week, as it was the Easter Holidays; she said yes! I was extremely surprised, but happy that I would be able to spend a whole week with him as we could get to know each other more and be more intimate.
Even though I liked the sound of staying around his house for a week, I felt extremely nervous asking my mother if it was okay because she didn't even know that I was gay. I was committed to trying to make me and him work, so I came out to my mother two days after meeting him - she took it extremely well, she said that she just wants me to happy. So once I came out, I asked her if I could stay around his house, once again, she agreed, however she said that she had to take me because "it's weird that I am staying around his house for a week after only meeting him once, and also from the internet". I was extremely nervous about meeting him again, and also his family - I was not used to going around someone's house as I have bad confidence problems and hate meeting and talking to new people.
All in all it went well; so well that I ended up staying for two weeks!
After that two weeks we regularly spoke by text and Skype - even though I missed him on the days that we were apart, I got through it.
Now... It has been two months since we met, and I am starting to get worried. We both dropped out of our exams because we felt like we were not going to do so well, and are both looking for an Apprenticeship. He has interviewed for a place at the Civil Service which pays great money, and is very likely to get the job as he said it went extremely well; he finds out whether he got the job later this month. And then there is me - tons of replies, however no confidence to go to the interviews, and have no direction or idea on what I want to do with my life, so even when I get replies to apprenticeships that I have applied for, I don't reply to the majority because I am too scared of change and have no idea what I want to do with my life. I really have no idea what to do with myself at this point - I am scared that when we both have apprenticeships we will hardly get to see each other, he has promised that we will see each other every weekend, or at least every other weekend, however I don't know if I will be able to stand being away from him for that long of a period. I am trying to hold off finding anything for as long as possible so I can spend as much time as possible with him, however, the inevitable is going to happen, where we can only see each other for small periods of times, with a lot larger intervals between the meetings as we have been doing for the last two months. He is basically the only thing in my life right now, and I am scared of my depression getting a lot worse if I can't see him on a regular basis.
I have probably missed out on a lot of details, I haven't even read over what I have said - Sorry for it being too long; I hope you can take the time to read it all.
Please reply with any suggestions or advice you could give me, or any details that you want to know.
Also, please do private message me if you want to chat with me, because I really want to talk to new people :D
Thank you!
Louie :cool: