Missing my Mom

[GinaM]

Hi everyone. I'm new to this site.

I lost my mom just under a month ago, the day before Mother's Day. She passed away right in front of me, while we were out for lunch, due to a stroke. It was so unexpected. My dad was overseas when it happened and my little brother was at a school event.

For the first two weeks after my Mom passed away, I felt really 'numb'. Mentally, I could think "I'll never see my mom again" but there weren't any feelings attached to it really. Only since this week have I really begun to miss my Mom.

My mom was the closets person to me. I trusted her fully and literally told her everything. She was my whole support system, and now that's been taken from me and it hurts me so much. The worst part is that all of my friends are trying their best to help me as much as they can. But the truth is that none of them actually understand what I'm going through. I get so angry, annoyed and jealous that my friends still have their Mothers and that their lives have not changed. I guess I just want to try and find people that actually can relate to what I'm going through so I don't feel so isolated...

[Beth]

I do know what your going through and the feelings that you feel. I lost my dad from a motorcycle accident a little over 6 years ago 1 month before my brothers birth. At the time of his death I had different feeling as I didn't understand fully of death and concept of the loss. Now that I'm older i fully understand the concept of the loss. I use to feel anger,bitterness, hatred and mostly the pain I felt by the emptiness of a big hole left in my heart and life. It has been mom, my little brother and myself ever since dad has passed. I see so much of my dad in my little brother in his looks and actions and that gives me comfort in just seeing a part of dad in him.For me the hatred,bitterness has left but at times anger still remains at certain times like holidays, his birthday and others. As for the emptiness of the big hole it still remains and will always be there. I'm not going to tell you that feelings will go away in time cause that would be a lie they don't go away. Everyone is different ,but for me they fade away for a bit then returns at certain times. I only wish that I can tell you that it gets easier as time passes but I can't and won't . I hope you can find something in your life to give you comfort and to help you cope with your loss.

[Bmble_B]

Yeah, sorry I can't even begin to understand what you're going through. At least cherish that you have other people around you that are trying their best to understand your situation and help you through it. Again I'm terribly sorry for your loss, if you need someone to talk to I'm here :)

[Microcosm]

GinaM,

I can't even begin to imagine how that must feel; however, I can establish how the numbness was brought about. That is a typical response to a traumatic event in one's life. My suggestion to you is to simply to minimize the emotional effects of the situation. Try to bring yourself to some state of contentment with it, emotional equilibrium. These things are hard, and the only way to get through them is to overcome them.

Best Wishes. :)

[Unlucky]

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