So hey...

[Abhorrence]

Hey everyone, my attendance here has been patchy recently due to the fact I've been studying for GCSE exams in England. But I've also kind of been trying to come to terms with something that I've known for ages. If you've looked through my posts (idek why you would but whatever) or seen me since I joined then you may have seen that my sexuality has been labelled many different things. I've said bisexual, straight, heteroromantic and all this jazz. I've been confused for a long time but in a way I wasn't confused - just in denial.

Around a month ago I started coming to terms with the fact that I'm gay. Not bisexual, not straight, not anything else. I've had these feelings since I was around eight years old but being in the family I'm in and generally wanting to have a "perfect life" (wife and kids) I tried so hard to reject the feelings and emotions I was experiencing. I did this for around six years until I was 14 when I began to think I could pass as bisexual, I was comfortable with this for around a month and then I decided to become closeted from that and was "straight" again.

Last year I had a relationship with my best friend who was a male (we no longer speak because he is a complete asshole, but this is completely unrelated to this topic) and I broke it off with him because once again I didn't want to be gay. For some reason, a month ago, I kept feeling torn within myself because I felt like my knowledge of my sexuality was surfacing after being buried for so long. I still didn't like it but instead of just pretending it wasn't real this time, I've begun trying to accept it.

I am still not completely accepted within myself, I still don't like it particularly but I know that I'll get there eventually. This post proves that I can actually write this fact without cringing, which is good.

I've not come out to anyone as of yet, accept kind of my friend Zac but that's a bit complicated. I'm not going to come out until I'm ready to fully accept it myself and I don't know how long this would take. HOWEVER, this is kind of my coming out post on this forum. So hey, I'm gay. I'm not going to change my signature to reflect this new-found thing, I refuse to be defined by my sexuality like many people seem to do.

SO yeah, that was kind of my post and damn that was kind of long I think. I hope everyone has been well and I hope nobody gets annoyed about my constantly changing decisions over the course of my time on this forum.

Bye! :D:D

[Bmble_B]

Congrats on coming out! It's nerve wracking to do, even if it's online I know. Hey I've had feelings for boys since I was like 5 years old xD
And a perfect life isn't just having a wife and kids, one of the components of a perfect life is being happy :D

[SethfromMI]

Hey everyone, my attendance here has been patchy recently due to the fact I've been studying for GCSE exams in England. But I've also kind of been trying to come to terms with something that I've known for ages. If you've looked through my posts (idek why you would but whatever) or seen me since I joined then you may have seen that my sexuality has been labelled many different things. I've said bisexual, straight, heteroromantic and all this jazz. I've been confused for a long time but in a way I wasn't confused - just in denial.

Around a month ago I started coming to terms with the fact that I'm gay. Not bisexual, not straight, not anything else. I've had these feelings since I was around eight years old but being in the family I'm in and generally wanting to have a "perfect life" (wife and kids) I tried so hard to reject the feelings and emotions I was experiencing. I did this for around six years until I was 14 when I began to think I could pass as bisexual, I was comfortable with this for around a month and then I decided to become closeted from that and was "straight" again.

Last year I had a relationship with my best friend who was a male (we no longer speak because he is a complete asshole, but this is completely unrelated to this topic) and I broke it off with him because once again I didn't want to be gay. For some reason, a month ago, I kept feeling torn within myself because I felt like my knowledge of my sexuality was surfacing after being buried for so long. I still didn't like it but instead of just pretending it wasn't real this time, I've begun trying to accept it.

I am still not completely accepted within myself, I still don't like it particularly but I know that I'll get there eventually. This post proves that I can actually write this fact without cringing, which is good.

I've not come out to anyone as of yet, accept kind of my friend Zac but that's a bit complicated. I'm not going to come out until I'm ready to fully accept it myself and I don't know how long this would take. HOWEVER, this is kind of my coming out post on this forum. So hey, I'm gay. I'm not going to change my signature to reflect this new-found thing, I refuse to be defined by my sexuality like many people seem to do.

SO yeah, that was kind of my post and damn that was kind of long I think. I hope everyone has been well and I hope nobody gets annoyed about my constantly changing decisions over the course of my time on this forum.

Bye! :D:D

I'm proud of you for telling the truth Jack, I'm always here if you need anything man :) . Good for you for having the courage. take your time and go at your own pace. proud and happy for you my friend :)

[WanderingHeart]

We're all really proud of you. It does indeed take quite a bit of time to accept it, but you definitely will get there :)

[Jaffe]

Good job figuring it out, and putting it out there. You'd never be happy trying to be what others want you to be.

[Bluebyrd]

I've always had feelings for boys. Congratulations on coming out!

[Abhorrence]

Thanks guys <333

[SethfromMI]

you're welcome Jack :D we are here for you man :) I know I most certainly am

[ImCoolBeans]

It's great that you're coming to terms with it and are accepting yourself. It's not easy to do and takes courage to confront things about yourself that you aren't even fully comfortable with. Congratulations :)

[Microcosm]

That's good. Congrats on coming out. It can be hard to do sometimes even if it is online. I wish you good luck in coming out to people in your life as well :)

[Airrd]

It is great that you understand how you feel and how you identify because for some people it can take them a very long time but the sooner you know, the happier you can be :)

[Abhorrence]

It's great that you're coming to terms with it and are accepting yourself. It's not easy to do and takes courage to confront things about yourself that you aren't even fully comfortable with. Congratulations :)
Thanks Mike :3
That's good. Congrats on coming out. It can be hard to do sometimes even if it is online. I wish you good luck in coming out to people in your life as well :)
Cheers man :D

[paletanner]

hey everyone, my attendance here has been patchy recently due to the fact i've been studying for gcse exams in england. But i've also kind of been trying to come to terms with something that i've known for ages. If you've looked through my posts (idek why you would but whatever) or seen me since i joined then you may have seen that my sexuality has been labelled many different things. I've said bisexual, straight, heteroromantic and all this jazz. I've been confused for a long time but in a way i wasn't confused - just in denial.

Around a month ago i started coming to terms with the fact that i'm gay. Not bisexual, not straight, not anything else. I've had these feelings since i was around eight years old but being in the family i'm in and generally wanting to have a "perfect life" (wife and kids) i tried so hard to reject the feelings and emotions i was experiencing. I did this for around six years until i was 14 when i began to think i could pass as bisexual, i was comfortable with this for around a month and then i decided to become closeted from that and was "straight" again.

Last year i had a relationship with my best friend who was a male (we no longer speak because he is a complete asshole, but this is completely unrelated to this topic) and i broke it off with him because once again i didn't want to be gay. For some reason, a month ago, i kept feeling torn within myself because i felt like my knowledge of my sexuality was surfacing after being buried for so long. I still didn't like it but instead of just pretending it wasn't real this time, i've begun trying to accept it.

I am still not completely accepted within myself, i still don't like it particularly but i know that i'll get there eventually. This post proves that i can actually write this fact without cringing, which is good.

I've not come out to anyone as of yet, accept kind of my friend zac but that's a bit complicated. I'm not going to come out until i'm ready to fully accept it myself and i don't know how long this would take. However, this is kind of my coming out post on this forum. So hey, i'm gay. I'm not going to change my signature to reflect this new-found thing, i refuse to be defined by my sexuality like many people seem to do.

So yeah, that was kind of my post and damn that was kind of long i think. I hope everyone has been well and i hope nobody gets annoyed about my constantly changing decisions over the course of my time on this forum.

Bye! :d:d

(((((hugs!!!)))))