Sigh..

[Melodic]

I feel like I'm the unimportant one everywhere I go. I feel like, if I died nobody would care or nobody would seem to care. Me and my mom fight all the time, it's to the point she always rubs in my face how abusive of a person I am. Which I probably am, I have tantrums left and right and I have no idea how to control them. My dad is always ignoring me. He barely wants to make time for me. My friends, or at least I think of them that way, always hang out with eachother and never seem to invite me anywhere or even acknowledge my existence but when it's convenient to them.. My nana downrights insults me everytime something goes happy in my life. The rest of my family only talk to me when they hear gossip from my Nana or when ever I visit. On top of which, I'm on here and lately I feel like everyone doesn't like me on here. I feel fat and ugly and I can barely eat junk food without cringing anymore. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so depressed. I feel like giving up most days, but I don't even have the courage to do so because the idea of death scares me. I want things to get better mostly, but they never do. They always end up getting worse. I don't know what to do. Maybe I'm just that horrible of a person and maybe I should just die to save everyone the trouble. I don't know anymore. Please help, someone.

[Bmble_B]

Can you think of any other source of your tantrums? You should try to think about that. And nobody on this planet is worthless Madie, not you especially. If you feel your friends hang out without you a lot, try confronting them about it and asking them why they do this. Dying would only cause more troubles for the people around you, trust me, people value you more than you think. You should also try asking your father why he ignores you. You're not a horrible person, you're just probably going through a rough time, please try to stay strong, if not for us, for your family and friends.

[Melodic]

Can you think of any other source of your tantrums? You should try to think about that. And nobody on this planet is worthless Madie, not you especially. If you feel your friends hang out without you a lot, try confronting them about it and asking them why they do this. Dying would only cause more troubles for the people around you, trust me, people value you more than you think. You should also try asking your father why he ignores you. You're not a horrible person, you're just probably going through a rough time, please try to stay strong, if not for us, for your family and friends.

Thanks for the advice. I'm feeling a bit more calm now. You're completely right, I should approach the situations. I'm not doing much good by ignoring them. I'm trying to stay strong with everything. I've kept a positive outlook on life until the last couple weeks. I'm hoping when I start getting more busy next week, I won't be as down as I am.

[Bmble_B]

Thanks for the advice. I'm feeling a bit more calm now. You're completely right, I should approach the situations. I'm not doing much good by ignoring them. I'm trying to stay strong with everything. I've kept a positive outlook on life until the last couple weeks. I'm hoping when I start getting more busy next week, I won't be as down as I am.

I'm glad to have helped :D

[Microcosm]

Melodic,

The key to this situation is trying to figure out exactly what makes you a good person in the first place. You'll feel like nothing you do is worthwhile until you figure out the end goal or purpose of what it is you are doing.

Here arises a problem, though.

There is no inherent purpose to our lives. We are chained to the walls that nature has erected for us. Such is the extent of human suffering. Therefore, the only confidence that we can reasonably profess comes from a state of contentment with our condemnation.

So, find happiness in your condemnation. Turn your fear into a confident expression of that fear. Turn your guilt into redemption of guilt. Change your depression into action and awareness.

I hope I helped, Madie. Best of luck to you. :)