sexuality awareness

[TomQuicknutt]

Firstly id like to say i dont know if this post belongs in this forum so alert me if not. Secondly i dont really know what responce ill get from this so say what you want.


right, so when i was younger i started sending naked pictures to a girl i wasnt in a relasionship with. I did it to explore my sexuality. I dont know why she did it. After that i felt awful and i wasnt attracted to men so i presumed i was asexual. Recently exchanged pictures with her a little and realised two things.

One. Im attracted to women and am heterosexual.

Two. I am not interested in that sort of relasionship and should wait for a girl with similar interests to me before i continue exploring sex.

If you want to share similar stories thats fine or if you want to give me advice or just have a conversation thats fine. I just wanted to tell someonr about this

[Unknwn]

To me, this post seemed to explain the way you came about discovering your sexuality. I'm still a bit confused about my sexuality, but I kinda also think it'd be nice to share my own experiences also.

So I remember my very first crush being a girl in like first grade. I was far too shy, so I never went up to her or told her or anything, but I felt attracted to her. She changed schools eventually, and I never saw her again. Fastforwarding to around 6th or 7th grade, I began realizing I had an interest in my male friends. Around this time I had also discovered porn. I didn't know what it was exactly--all I knew was that it was pictures of naked people--but, I guess in a way, it introduced me to different sexualities. I had also previously experimented with my male and female cousins on occasions where we basically discovered our bodies. We never did anything too sexual; it was mostly just touching and "what is this? what is that?" sort of stuff, but I definitely do think it contributed to my sexuality--or, at least, my confusing of my sexuality.
So I began becoming interested in my male classmates as well as my female classmates, and I began having crushes on both. I never told anyone because I was extremely quiet and shy. I remember thinking to myself about what I was, and I kept switching from thinking I was straight, to gay, to straight, to gay again, and so on. Then, when I graduated elementary school, one of my friends came out to me as bi online, and I told him that I thought I was bi too.
We continued talking over the months, and our conversations began getting somewhat explicit. It got to the point when he wanted me to send him a nude picture. For many reasons, I did not want to do it, and I ended up not sending anything. He did send me a picture though, but I asked him if that was him, and he told me it wasn't (I didn't believe him though lol). Over the months, we kept talking, and our conversations were still sexually-driven; however, I usually kept restricting myself, and eventually we slowly stopped talking. I was already a freshman or sophomore in high school at this point, and I still had crushes on both boys and girls. I went through all of high school not having any girlfriend or boyfriend, and I simply decided to just leave my sexuality be and, instead, focus on more important things. This is when I thought of myself as asexual, as well, although, I was still interested in both girls and boys.
I graduated high school and began college still unsure about my sexuality, and here I am lol. I guess, if anything, I would call myself bi just because I am definitely interested in girls and boys, but I haven't come out or anything. I also haven't been in relationships or any of that to actually test out my sexuality mostly, I think, because I close up too soon or I am too shy or something like that. However, I don't necessarily put too much personal emphasis into my sexuality, and I am definitely happy just letting it be.

So yeah, that's my experience with my sexuality. It definitely did help writing it out, and thanks for sharing your experience, as well.

[Lost in the Echo]

Puberty :arrow: Teen Sexuality and Gender
This is most relevant here :)

[NZPerson]

I agree lots of my friends are having casual sex and inn full time relationships which i agree is normal for 15-16 year olds but even just last week i turned someone down. Because im saving relationships until ive finished school and can actually focus on them properly. But that beinng said you still need the experience so experimenting to figure out your sexuality orwether you want a relationship is not a bad thing at all.