Broken

[Tesserax]

So, I'm starting to pick myself back up. But it's not that I'm out of the muddy waters, not yet. I'm still wading, I've just gotten better at it. I'm starting to catch up in class, and things are looking up. But I feel so broken inside. None of my friends have really been there to help, they don't seem to really notice. I guess I'm just that good at hiding it.

I just want to have somebody understand. I've never had a girlfriend, and I keep thinking about how alone I am, and I can't shake it. I just want somebody to hold me while I cry, while I tell them about everything that's gone wrong, while they tell me that everything's okay. I just want somebody to give me love back, because god I am so broken, and I always loved to help people when they had problems, to fix them, but when I'm broken myself, it just feels like they haven't really been there.

I'm probably going to cut again tonight. We'll see, let's hope for day three tomorrow.

[Conqueror of Hearts]

Everything that is broken can be fixed...so don't you worry, you will get out of that muddy waters. And what I love about getting better after I feel broken for a long time, is that I feel so much stronger and proud of myself.
And then when you look back at times when you were so down, you remember how you did manage to pull yourself up and you know you can fight any battle.

-xx

[ComfortableInChaos]

Look bro, if you need to, you can message me. We might not know each other or be friends, really, but my PMs are always open for venting and blowing off steam or just talking to someone (even if I only log in once or twice a week.) I'm always here to talk, if you need someone, you can just hmu or message me on Skype (message me for my Skype ID.) Seriously, I'm always available somehow to talk. I've been in a place like you where I put myself out to help certain people feel better, but they don't help me at all, and that's normal and it's going to happen and I know it sucks, but it's just the way things are. That's why I turned to the internet and meeting internet friends when I was 13 and 14. I'm 17 now and can usually rely on my internet friends more than I can my friends in real life (especially now that I'm not in high school anymore.)

TL;DR Message me and get my Skype from me because I'm not on here all that much anymore lol

[Microcosm]

Veneficus de Sapiens

Awe I'll hold you :hug:

I think it's important to use the momentum you have right now. You said your grades were looking up. That's good! You should consider the accomplishments you've made and the potential you have to make more. Don't give up the search for your purpose in life. Once you find that purpose and embrace it, not even depression will be able to hold you down.

Best of Luck!