ValentinClarke
May 21st, 2015, 11:29 AM
Well, I realised this guy kept looking at me, and it was beginning to unnerve me, cos he's kinda hot, and single, and just.. yeah. I knew he was going to be my last male crush, I just knew. Last night I was at BBQ and he kept looking at me, and even asked to switch places with someone closer to me. I then messaged him after asking what I had done, to make him keep looking at me. And he goes, what do you mean, and I said my friends keep saying he's looking over and he just said, when was this zak? Trust me you have done nothing wrong, i can't even remember looking at you at all tbh. I just said oh ok, was worried that you were hating me or something. And he goes, i have nothing whatsoever to hate you for zak, dont worry. Then I say sorry gtg now, and he goes no worries cya. Now, I may be overthinking, but I think he was lying. Cos he must know he's looking at me. Cos he talks to his mates and looks at me. He's two years older than me, and he leaves tomorrow. I'll see him out of school still though, and I'm going to the after prom, so I'll party with him. I just like him kinda, and I don't want to miss out. He was the cause of my panic attacks though. At the party, I'll see if I can get him drunk, and talk to me. But, I think I want him as a friend, I really don't know. I just want to forget about everything. I want to relax. And something that I keep thinking that will help is smoking, even though I know it won't work