I literally cannot imagine myself having any kind of future.

[JusticeandMercy]

I usually try not to let this bother me too much because I try to just tell myself if I keep going then something has to happen, but right now it's kind of getting to me?
I can't imagine myself ever going to college or even finishing high school and yet I can't imagine myself just dropping out.
I can't imagine having any kind of job, even a shitty minimum wage job.
I legitimately feel like I'm just going to die before the end of senior year, and it probably wouldn't even be suicide; it would just be some accident. Maybe a car wreck. Ever since eighth grade I have felt like either myself or one of my siblings isn't going to make it to see us all in adulthood, and each day it feels just a little more like it's going to be me.
I know I should talk to someone about this but I am absolutely terrified of adults and when my parents tried to make me see a therapist I just shut down and I couldn't talk so they stopped taking me because they thought I was just intentionally giving her the silent treatment, and I also hate my parents trying to get involved in my life or trying to care about my grades or future.
I also am just so fucking scared of actually asking for help, even though I pretty much can't do anything on my own.

If anyone's going to ask me about any mental disorders I have, I've only ever been diagnosed with ADHD.

[James Dean]

Have you came out to anyone or accepted and understood more, (this includes yourself), about your sexuality or gender identity/crisis.

That should be the first step. Have you done that?

[JusticeandMercy]

Have you came out to anyone or accepted and understood more, (this includes yourself), about your sexuality or gender identity/crisis.

That should be the first step. Have you done that?Yes, all of my friends know I'm bi and a lot of them know I'm non-binary; all of them seem fine with it and most of them are also LGBT+.