Loneliness is killing me.

[Leprous]

I feel like shit every day, I have nobody who will always be there for me. In my class I am just an object to them, only usefull if they need me, if they don't I'm useless and then nobody cares.

In school I am only usefull for laughing at, everyone hates me for who I am. I am looding the only friends I have. I think about suicide every single day, I have nobody and I will never have someone who will truly care about me.

I am anxious all the time, I'm never calm, always worried about everything.
I just felt like venting again.

[Vermilion]

I feel like shit every day, I have nobody who will always be there for me. In my class I am just an object to them, only usefull if they need me, if they don't I'm useless and then nobody cares.

In school I am only usefull for laughing at, everyone hates me for who I am. I am looding the only friends I have. I think about suicide every single day, I have nobody and I will never have someone who will truly care about me.

I am anxious all the time, I'm never calm, always worried about everything.
I just felt like venting again.

Why do they laugh at you ? Why do you help them of they are dicks to you ? Have you tried making new or other friends at school.

[Leprous]

Why do they laugh at you ? Why do you help them of they are dicks to you ? Have you tried making new or other friends at school.

I simply can't make new friends, I'm too much of a failure for that. I don't know why they laugh at me, and I help them because otherwise everyhing will get worse.

[Vermilion]

I simply can't make new friends, I'm too much of a failure for that. I don't know why they laugh at me, and I help them because otherwise everyhing will get worse.

Your not a failure, you're good at whatever it is you help them with. Can you ask them why they are dicks to you ?

[Leprous]

twin I did it so many times before, and the answer will always be: because you're ugly and will never have a girlfriend. It's always the same, and I'm so fucking done with life.

[Vermilion]

marb121 are you ugly ? Do you want a girlfriend ? Why do you care what they think

[NeuroTiger]

twin I did it so many times before, and the answer will always be: because you're ugly and will never have a girlfriend. It's always the same, and I'm so fucking done with life.

And do you think that you are ugly?

[Microcosm]

These people don't dictate your life as it may seem that they do. I know it seems like that sometimes, but the thing I've done whenever this happened is to just distance myself from them and avoid them and also to just realize that whatever these people say about how they dislike you or whatever doesn't actually mean you are a bad person and it will not effect the rest of your life in the long term no matter what they say. Because of that last part, it is totally not worth killing yourself. Try thinking about it like that.

Good luck :)

[Kirina]

I have nobody and I will never have someone who will truly care about me.
The most important person in your life, should be yourself and you truly care about yourself. Which is all that matters. Try thinking like that.

What happens when you have friends? They spend money on you, you spend money on them. If you have a movie night by yourself, 1 soda and a bag of chips will be enough. When with friends, you get hyped and exaggerate. Suddenly you want 3 bags of chips and 2 soda's (they bring stuff as well) and you end up ordering pizza too. Social activities = more money.

Without friends, think about all the nice things you can buy for yourself.

I'm not saying that you shouldn't have friends, there is pros/cons and when your depressed, you got to look at the positives. That's a coping mechanism to not bring yourself even further down.

Watch this video (https://youtu.be/HZm4B4foybM). It's a long video but the 5-7 minute videos by teen vloggers, really don't do the job. The video is not telling you to become a douche, keep that in mind.

[Echelon]

These people don't dictate your life as it may seem that they do. I know it seems like that sometimes, but the thing I've done whenever this happened is to just distance myself from them and avoid them and also to just realize that whatever these people say about how they dislike you or whatever doesn't actually mean you are a bad person and it will not effect the rest of your life in the long term no matter what they say. Because of that last part, it is totally not worth killing yourself. Try thinking about it like that.

Good luck :)
The hardest part about feeling lonely is that you have no one to turn to.
My case is simple: I do have friends, but they don't really put an effort in. I live with a twin sister who has all the same friends as me. My single mom is working her ass off everyday for me and never feels like talking to me when she gets home from working.

[Echelon]

These people don't dictate your life as it may seem that they do. I know it seems like that sometimes, but the thing I've done whenever this happened is to just distance myself from them and avoid them and also to just realize that whatever these people say about how they dislike you or whatever doesn't actually mean you are a bad person and it will not effect the rest of your life in the long term no matter what they say. Because of that last part, it is totally not worth killing yourself. Try thinking about it like that.

Good luck :)

Loneliness isn't exactly thinking about what others think of you, it's more about wanting to be a part of something. Of something as simple as a friend group. When you feel lonely, you feel extremely isolated.
It feels like everyone around you is living while you're in your room and appearing like a piece of furniture that is trying to move at school but just cannot and you just feel like you might as well be dead inside because you're practically not even living.
You try so hard, but you feel like you can't.

[MasterOfPuppets]

The way I see it, Marb, it would be great for you if you could find something to do that is not school related - volunteer somewhere, try out photography, try running every other day etc. My point is - while education is important, it's not the only thing that matters. Your school is not the only place to make friends.

[Leprous]

My problem is people push me around easily, I don't have any freedom to ever be myself, people say who I am, who I'm not. I can't handle this life anymore, in my class everyone except for 1 guy hate me, and I never did anything wrong to them. They just wanna break me down.

[MasterOfPuppets]

So don't let them break you down - there is so much more in this life than high school, you just have to fight your way trough it.

[Leprous]

So don't let them break you down - there is so much more in this life than high school, you just have to fight your way trough it.

It's not that easy you know, I have mental problems, I am extremely anxious, I'm afraid to loose the few friends I still have.

[MasterOfPuppets]

Nobody said it was easy, but it is the only right way and it can only go up from here. You should focus on your dreams, think about what you want to do after you are done with high school.

[Leprous]

Nobody said it was easy, but it is the only right way and it can only go up from here. You should focus on your dreams, think about what you want to do after you are done with high school.

It's not that easy with people dictating your life, I simply can't.

[Vermilion]

It's not that easy with people dictating your life, I simply can't.

Try doing something that will make the treat you better or do something id do give them a reason to hate you, stop helping them till they show you some respect

[Leprous]

Try doing something that will make the treat you better or do something id do give them a reason to hate you, stop helping them till they show you some respect

I try so hard, whatever I do they won't leave me alone and people keep breaking me down.

[Vermilion]

I try so hard, whatever I do they won't leave me alone and people keep breaking me down.

Why doesn't your teacher do anything ?

[Kirina]

It's not that easy with people dictating your life, I simply can't.

Did you watch the video I linked? Here it is again https://youtu.be/HZm4B4foybM

[Elena_]

I try so hard, whatever I do they won't leave me alone and people keep breaking me down.

Maybe you should move to another school , I bet you will find good friends there :)

[Leprous]

Maybe you should move to another school , I bet you will find good friends there :)

Well, it's not that easy, I'm not allowed to, and that would just make things horrible for me.

[Leprous]

Why doesn't your teacher do anything ?

Because she doesn't care about me at all.

[Elena_]

Well, it's not that easy, I'm not allowed to, and that would just make things horrible for me.

Why not? I'm gonna go to a new school next year , because I cant stand my current classmates

[Vermilion]

Because she doesn't care about me at all.

Have you spoken your head ?

[Leprous]

Have you spoken your head ?

I have, I already told her so many times my class is breaking me down and she simply doesn't care.

Elena_ I can't change schools, I simply can't.

[Vermilion]

I have, I already told her so many times my class is breaking me down and she simply doesn't care.

Elena_ I can't change schools, I simply can't.

Do your parents know ?

[Leprous]

Do your parents know ?

I have been to a therapist, yes they know.

[Vermilion]

I have been to a therapist, yes they know.

I'm sorry, for the shit your putting up with.

[Elena_]

I have, I already told her so many times my class is breaking me down and she simply doesn't care.

Elena_ I can't change schools, I simply can't.

Well in that case , why dont you try to make new friends somewhere ?? For example go to guitar lessons , or try out a new sport :)

[Leprous]

You know, I used to talk to my online friends every single day, both from VT and other places. People who cares about me, people who made me feel happy, people who showed me I was actually a good person. Most of those people left for no reason, some got into fights with me. But what's worse, is that those who just left, promised to remain my friends. They fucking promised. I have 2 or 3 of those friends left. And it hurts knowing more than 20 people left me within 2 months.