Anxiety/paranoia

[Airam]

Well like 1 year ago my mom started having this anxiety about an illness she might have (she is a doctor and she knows alot about it). We don't know if she has it and have pretty much ignored it and lived on since, exept a few months ago, when she had this mental crisis.
Anyway, this has affected me very strongly, way to strongly and i believe it has crossed the "normal" line. I am constantly monitoring her mood, checking if she is worried etc.

She is healthy, young looking, in good shape etc. and does not mention her worry most of the time, especially that her symptoms are minor and might as well be a minor problem + there is no progression.
She has a bf and does sports too, and i really think she does not think about that most of the time, but for some reason i am extremely anxious that she is gonna start worrying again.
Every time she is a bit more sad, tired etc. i totally freak out.

I really do not know what to do. I am a very logical and analythical thinker and rarely include emotion into my thought process, and yet i can't stop to (illogically) worry.

The weird thing is, we dont even spend that much time together and i normally dont miss her as such when im away. I never tell her about my feelings either, and i guess i am not dependent of her (exept of course i love her).
I dont know what to do, please give me advice on how to stop this paranoia (counselling and evt. meds are not an option), i have a passion and dreams but this is taking over my life.

[Microcosm]

Well like 1 year ago my mom started having this anxiety about an illness she might have (she is a doctor and she knows alot about it). We don't know if she has it and have pretty much ignored it and lived on since, exept a few months ago, when she had this mental crisis.
Anyway, this has affected me very strongly, way to strongly and i believe it has crossed the "normal" line. I am constantly monitoring her mood, checking if she is worried etc.

She is healthy, young looking, in good shape etc. and does not mention her worry most of the time, especially that her symptoms are minor and might as well be a minor problem + there is no progression.
She has a bf and does sports too, and i really think she does not think about that most of the time, but for some reason i am extremely anxious that she is gonna start worrying again.
Every time she is a bit more sad, tired etc. i totally freak out.

I really do not know what to do. I am a very logical and analythical thinker and rarely include emotion into my thought process, and yet i can't stop to (illogically) worry.

The weird thing is, we dont even spend that much time together and i normally dont miss her as such when im away. I never tell her about my feelings either, and i guess i am not dependent of her (exept of course i love her).
I dont know what to do, please give me advice on how to stop this paranoia (counselling and evt. meds are not an option), i have a passion and dreams but this is taking over my life.

I think the part about how she wasn't actually sure if she had the illness is important. What if she doesn't have it? Try bringing it up to her maybe. I'm not sure if you should or shouldn't do that because I don't know her personally and don't know how she'd react, but the decision of bringing it up to her and how you would do that would be entirely up to you. However, my advice would be to look into the illness more. You never specified what illness it was, but I'm guessing you know. So, I'd say research it and perhaps try to comfort her with knowledge about it and such. Like hopeful reminders here and there. Just generally keep her attitude and mood up and work with her on that.

I also want to add as a comment that it is great and really sweet that you care for your mom so strongly. There are some people that wouldn't take such initiative when put into these situations, and I really do hope everything works out for you and your mom. :)

Hope I could help you, Maria! And good luck!