Tendencies
May 10th, 2015, 02:53 AM
I'll try to keep this short. Tonight was my step-sister's prom and she was having all these people over getting ready together and I am already uncomfortable around other people whom I haven't met due to the fear of being judged, and my dad decided that we should take a drive so that we can get away from all the girls and the hype. As we were driving around he started to ask me if I was going to do anything for my proms and what-not, and I told him that I wasn't sure, and then he proceeded to ask me if I had any interest in asking anyone to go with me and I said no and he got quiet and if I were to type something to represent his face, it would be ":/". I have never been a part of the "dating world" and I feel like a disappointment to him because I am not the big star athlete with a super hot girlfriend planning to have lots of fun in high school. In fact, I am the exact opposite... And I seem to put myself down a lot for being sad because I feel that I should be happy all the time because I know that it can be a lot worse but it is just hard sometimes to get past what I am feeling and sometimes I just can't and I feel like an a**hole cause I feel like I am asking for attention. So sorry if this post is coming off that way..