Messed around with a friend

[Celtics]

So for years me and a friend (don't know what we are now) started just acting different around each other. He would put my hand on his dick then I would grab his ass (if this is against the rules take it down i don't really know havent been on here for a long time). Never got to anything more than that. Then he moved and we both got older and just started talking less and less and he won't even text me unless I text him first (waited weeks for him to try to talk at all). So that makes me believe he just wants to put everything behind and move on, which I guess I'm fine with but still want to be friends. Then me and another friend started talking about stuff you and your best friend only know. The teenager questions like dick size, virginity questions, etc. We don't talk anymore, and I just feel like a piece of shit because I don't know what to do. I honestly just want to be happy and now I have no friends really since of people moving and school changes. I never made the first move though, I've always wanted to experiment with another guy but I swore I would never make the first move. So I don't think its my fault, but I honestly don't know. They were both my best friends and knew a lot of things no one else knows, and I'm worried they might tell someone. How do I just get out of this, and to talk to one of them or something. This is all over the place, but growing up where I live and my family, this cannot get out and I feel bad because I know somehow its my fault and yeah. Don't really know why I posted this just wanted to get this off my chest. Anyone been in a similar situation and have any advice on what to do, because I don't have a clue. :what:

[seamo34]

So for years me and a friend (don't know what we are now) started just acting different around each other. He would put my hand on his dick then I would grab his ass (if this is against the rules take it down i don't really know havent been on here for a long time). Never got to anything more than that. Then he moved and we both got older and just started talking less and less and he won't even text me unless I text him first (waited weeks for him to try to talk at all). So that makes me believe he just wants to put everything behind and move on, which I guess I'm fine with but still want to be friends. Then me and another friend started talking about stuff you and your best friend only know. The teenager questions like dick size, virginity questions, etc. We don't talk anymore, and I just feel like a piece of shit because I don't know what to do. I honestly just want to be happy and now I have no friends really since of people moving and school changes. I never made the first move though, I've always wanted to experiment with another guy but I swore I would never make the first move. So I don't think its my fault, but I honestly don't know. They were both my best friends and knew a lot of things no one else knows, and I'm worried they might tell someone. How do I just get out of this, and to talk to one of them or something. This is all over the place, but growing up where I live and my family, this cannot get out and I feel bad because I know somehow its my fault and yeah. Don't really know why I posted this just wanted to get this off my chest. Anyone been in a similar situation and have any advice on what to do, because I don't have a clue. :what:


hey man ya i went through the same stuff for a while and after a while everything will be ok again you will find someone :P dont worrie about them as its not all about u doing something wrong those guys have their own issues and ya i have no firends eather at the minute its tough but always rember their is always someone having a worse day than u!

[Zachary G]

I am sorry you are going through what you are going through. Unfortunately, I have never been in that position, but I would advise you not to worry about any of it. Your friends seemed to have moved on and so should you. As far as them knowing things only a best friend would, you know things about them too, so you have to believe that your secrets are safe with them, like theirs are with you. It will all pass, dont stress it, it will be okay.