My nervous system is really, really collapsing...

[Nick Jackson]

Hello to everybody... I know this is not much of a "crisis" and I know there are very worst problems out there but this is a forum about supporting all kinds of problems, big or small, especially what really tends to ruin our lifes however unimportant and egoistic it sounds to many. So let's get it started:
I am an 18 years old boy. My entire life I've been the nerd, the uncool (just because I listen to rock and read a lot of books and see a lot of cultoure films like social and stuff) and the most unskilled person ever to almost everyone (besides my family and some other exceptions). In times I've got beaten up (not the last 4 years) and I was always the joke of the school and everybody's. I kow people don't get clinical depression by others not liking them but I did. Spent three years with clinical depression but in the end I got over it. At the time I only had like four friends (and of course not a girlfriend). At the end of the three years depression (at the point of running of home - they found me at the end of the day) (two years have now passed, I got over it by doing a lot of fight with myself - one of the accomplishments I'm most proud of) and I managed to make some friends (not many but come on) and I even managed to get a girlfriend (she wasn't of course the girl you 'll see and say "wow, hot", I'll admit that but she was the greatest girl I've ever met). Then I managed to screw that up by trying not to screw it up. Anyway I got over it and dated the only persons that would date me (both ugly AND stupid) just because I needed to be in a relationship (that's how pathetic I am, yes). As the time passed by, however, I started to feel the same way again: People killing me with their attitude and everything (people I thought I was friends with - not the original four thank god, they're like brothers to me and the only persons that really get me)... At this point I hae to add that I am an agnosticist and always "fought" with people about religion and the absoluteness of it... So I got to the point where I was this close from believing to god (something unthinkable for me), that's how desperately I need something to keep me on my feet. I realised again I am not good at anything and that my mind is going to break all the time. I am dealing with my own demons that haunt me and I am back to all the OCD habits I used to have and had got over them. I am a child of divorced parents but they are in very good terms with each other and always try to get me but they can't. However my father's family is a crappy pot-soming-kind one and I have been in very bad terms with them for years since they tried to turn me against my father. And on top of all that I realised that I am in love with that first girl of mine (we have stayed really close friends) and I really don't know what to do... My mind is going to break and my nervous system is shit....(I even tried cigarettes and stuff to get me off but I just can't... i am too self-conscious)... Please help me..! I can't have that part of my life back.......

[Vermilion]

Hello to everybody... I know this is not much of a "crisis" and I know there are very worst problems out there but this is a forum about supporting all kinds of problems, big or small, especially what really tends to ruin our lifes however unimportant and egoistic it sounds to many. So let's get it started:
I am an 18 years old boy. My entire life I've been the nerd, the uncool and the most unskilled person ever to almost everyone (besides my family and some other exceptions). In times I've got beaten up (not the last 4 years) and I was always the joke of the school and everybody's. I kow people don't get clinical depression by others not liking them but I did. Spent three years with clinical depression but in the end I got over it. At the time I only had like four friends (and of course not a girlfriend). At the end of the three years depression (two years have now passed, I got over it by doing a lot of fight with myself (one of the accomplishments I'm most proud of) and I managed to make some friends (not many but come on) and I even managed to get a girlfriend (she wasn't of course the girl you 'll see and say "wow, hot", I'll admit that but she was the greatest girl I've ever met). Then I managed to screw that up by trying not to screw it up. Anyway I got over it and dated the only persons that would date me (both ugly AND stupid) just because I needed to be in a relationship (that's how pathetic I am, yes). As the time passed by, however, I started to feel the same way again: People killing me with their attitude and everything (people I thought I was friends with - not the original four thank god, they're like brothers to me and the only persons that really get me)... At this point I hae to add that I am an agnosticist and always "fought" with people about religion and the absoluteness of it... So I got to the point where I was this close from believing to god (something unthinkable for me), that's how desperately I need something to keep me on my feet. I realised again I am not good at anything and that my mind is going to break all the time. I am dealing with my own demons that haunt me and I am back to all the OCD habits I used to have and had got over them. I am a child of divorced parents but they are in very good terms with each other and always try to get me but they can't. And on top of all that I realised that I am in love with that first girl of mine (we have stayed really close friends) and I really don't what to do... Please help me..!

Can you please break it onto smaller questions and I'll do my best to help

[Microcosm]

Definitely talk to that girl you said you were in love with. Maybe she likes you back? You just have to explore that path and see if she's the one for you. You seem like a very realistic person and you seem like you understand that cigarettes and such don't really help your situation. This was evident to me when you said
My mind is going to break and my nervous system is shit....(I even tried cigarettes and stuff to get me off but I just can't... i am too self-conscious)
So, that's definitely something. I'm kind of the same way. I observe problems very self-consciously and objectively. As to being the kid who gets picked on at school, I think you should probably look into why that is. Try to find the reason that these people pick on you. Is there anything really wrong with you, or are they just unsatisfied with their own lives so they pick on others? There might not really be anything wrong with you that you need to change. Also, you could tell someone at your school like a teacher, guidance, counselor, principal, etc.

Anyways... Good luck on your future and I hope I could help.

[Hey_123]

Go see a phycologist or a physiatrist.

[Jaffe]

As to being the kid who gets picked on at school, I think you should probably look into why that is. Try to find the reason that these people pick on you. Is there anything really wrong with you, or are they just unsatisfied with their own lives so they pick on others?


Isn't that always the reason bullies pick on kids? Seldom/never anything wrong with the victim. Bullies are 'unsatisfied' and insecure and have no self-esteem except what they get from proving that can beat up kids smaller than them selves. But that doesn't change the fact that those of us who are skinny and small and different get picked on. We can't really change the things that make us bully-magnets. We just learn to hide.

[Microcosm]

Isn't that always the reason bullies pick on kids? Seldom/never anything wrong with the victim. Bullies are 'unsatisfied' and insecure and have no self-esteem except what they get from proving that can beat up kids smaller than them selves. But that doesn't change the fact that those of us who are skinny and small and different get picked on. We can't really change the things that make us bully-magnets. We just learn to hide.

Yeah. I think another factor though is that you have to have confidence in yourself and your abilities.

[thatgothgirluknow]

dont worry be yourself and you'll do fine if they dont like u then their not worth worrying about i'm allot like u trust me there's allot of nerds out there but nerds are cool in their own way u just need to try to find more people like u and not worry about the cool kids Definitely talk to that girl you said you were in love with. Maybe she likes you back? You just have to explore that path and see if she's the one for you. You seem like a very realistic person and you seem like you understand that cigarettes and such don't really help your situation. This was evident to me when you said

So, that's definitely something. I'm kind of the same way. I observe problems very self-consciously and objectively. As to being the kid who gets picked on at school, I think you should probably look into why that is. Try to find the reason that these people pick on you. Is there anything really wrong with you, or are they just unsatisfied with their own lives so they pick on others? There might not really be anything wrong with you that you need to change. Also, you could tell someone at your school like a teacher, guidance, counselor, principal, etc.

Anyways... Good luck on your future and I hope I could help.

i know what u meant but i dont think its a good idea to try and find out why they pick on him no matter what u do someone will always pick on u there doesn't have to be anything wrong with u even the most perfect person in the world gets picked on at some point wheather they admit it or not they may even not notice

[WintersuN]

Nerves are different to the nervous system, but in all seriousness, why not try a free over-the-phone counselling service? I'm not sure if there's one available in the USA, but they can certainly help you if there is one!