I have everything

[mynameistaken]

hey everyone it's been a long time since I've used this site and I rarely ever used it at that because I don't like asking anyone for help with anything, that's my character flaw.
Anyway, as the title suggests, I have everything that I want at this point in my life. I spent time working after graduating high school so I would have enough money to go to university and I've been accepted to the university that I wanted to get into and studying in the field I want. On top of that I have enough scholarship money so I want have to worry about tuition fees which means all of my money can be used towards living expenses and materials.
I have everything that I want... So why do I still want to kill myself?

[Vermilion]

People don't kill yourself, just cos you have everything doesn't mean you can't be depressed. Are you missing someone or thing ?

[mynameistaken]

To be clear, I'm not going to kill myself because I couldn't do that to my family. My social life is all well and good, I have nothing to cry over and only lost contact with people that I didn't want to see anymore. I Just feel selfish because there are people that would kill to be in my shoes but I just can't, and never could appreciate what I have.

[Vermilion]

Just wait and let it sink in