Thinking about the end...

[Lottie]

Im feeling so low atm, lower than i have ever felt before and i dunno what to do to make it stop.

Ive been thinking about killing myself but dunno if id ever actually do it. i just want the pain to stop and someone to show me it can be okay.

Npbody cares about me I'm just a pain who gets in everyones way.

[Vermilion]

Why do you think know one wants/care about you ?

[Lottie]

I have nobody, I'm just being moved from home to home coz no1 wants me to be there. the one person i cared about most is now gone.

[Vermilion]

I have nobody, I'm just being moved from home to home coz no1 wants me to be there. the one person i cared about most is now gone.

What about your parents ?

[Lottie]

My mum just died and I never knew my dad. havent lived with my mum for ages anyway.

[Vermilion]

My mum just died and I never knew my dad. havent lived with my mum for ages anyway.

so where are you living ? Family or care system

[Tesserax]

Don't do it, do not dare do it. Just hold on, things will get better eventually. The measure of your success is not where your worst is in life, but of how hard you can hold onto life even during your darkest moments. Do this for me, do NOT end it. Try all you can to keep going and just wait, just hang on and things will get better. Add me if you want to chat some time, and I can help out. I was pretty close to suicide myself, but I pulled through with the help of a close friend, and I hope I can be that friend for you :)

[Lottie]

so where are you living ? Family or care system

I've been living with foster families for a while now coz they didnt think my mum could talk care of me, which is rubbish coz we was fine together.

I was hoping i could go back to my mum but now im lost with no hope for the future.

[Vermilion]

I've been living with foster families for a while now coz they didnt think my mum could talk care of me, which is rubbish coz we was fine together.

I was hoping i could go back to my mum but now im lost with no hope for the future.
Are you an only child ?

[fiftycents]

You will be okay. Perhaps maybe you're just uninspired, I've been through depression for how many years now. Actually since I was a kid. And I'm still here, still kicking. Block all the negative thought and bring the positivity in you, look at the brighter side. Do you have a hobby or something, that might help you too!

edit: and don't say that nobody cares, because I just made an account just to reply for you :)

[Lottie]

yeh im an only child.

Thanks for joing for me fiftycents. ive not really had hobbies in a while tbh ive not really been as good as i could have been. i always just thought it would be back to me and my mum agen

[Vermilion]

It can't be easy, I'm sorry.

[Lottie]

I just wanted to say thank u all 4 being so nice

[Microcosm]

I'm a realist, so I'm gonna get a little philosophical here.

To me, your issue can be broken up into one word: dependence.
You need someone to depend on. You need someone to know you're there and care about you, right? Here is a trick that literally saved me from lots of my depression: learn to be independent. It's a daunting task, no doubt, but it only sounds daunting. Just think about it: what would your life be like if you depended on no one? You only depended on yourself and trusted in yourself. It has many benefits. This post will only plant the seeds of such an idea in your mind, but perhaps you can think and meditate on this and see if you can form a solution that works especially for you.

Hope I could help. :)

[Andyyy95]

Im feeling so low atm, lower than i have ever felt before and i dunno what to do to make it stop.

Ive been thinking about killing myself but dunno if id ever actually do it. i just want the pain to stop and someone to show me it can be okay.

Npbody cares about me I'm just a pain who gets in everyones way.

Hey Lottie,

I'm sorry to hear of the problems you're facing at the moment.
I know there's not a lot I can really do, but I'm here for you if you want a chat :)

Things will get better for you in the future I promise! Just hang on in there, I"m sure you can get through this :)

Best,
Andy

[tyler b]

Don't let that get in your way I have Ben beaten threatened assaulted bullied yet i am still here I have been told to go kill my self but I never gave up don't give up without a fight every thing I told you about me is true your not alone