I'm scared

[xXoblivionXx]

I'm scared that I've gotten bad again. To the point where I find myself not wanting to be here. I'm once again where I started, maybe not as bad but I'm getting there. And I'm terrified. I'm terrified because I know the destruction that I'm capable of but I don't want to get help... but I am in a sense.. they can't help me because I'm broken and I'm going to be like this for the rest of my life.

[Echelon]

I'm so sorry.
I'm in the same mood (but not as extreme).

I would tell you to get help (but you've probably heard that a thousand times). If I were you I would find a friend about what you're going through.

I'm currently really down and lately have been cutting to make myself feel better. My mind is just really weird and likes to cut to get rid of all the negative thoughts. Anyways, I know how hard it is to tell someone about what you're going through (not that I'm suicidal). In fact, I can't tell anyone about my cuts, even though one day I could cut around my wrists too deep and kill myself. Lets hope not.

Just talk to someone that you trust, and if that doesn't help (I know it's probably be hard), but tell your parents or an adult that you trust immediately.

[xXoblivionXx]

I don't know how to tell them. I go to therapy once a week. I do have a friend who's going through similar things but I keep it in, not all of it but I tell them that I'm not as bad as I really am. Only I and my friend Knows how bad I am at core and I feel like I'm deteriorating from the inside out but I can't tell anyone that.

[Abhorrence]

I feel the exact same, it's so hard keeping such a fucking happy mood for people and inside you're just slowly melting away again.
Please try to stay strong, keep getting help at therapy. I believe in you and I hope for the best.