Not Getting any Better

[CharlieHorse]

Another year has gone by, and it seems like everything is exactly the same.
I'm currently on some antidepressants (not really working), and adhd meds (don't really work either).
I still have no motivation to do anything. Schoolwork is a huge mountain, going to school is difficult, reaching out to friends is stressful. I just spend the whole day inside or sleeping. I'm tired all the time. I don't feel like living sometimes... well, a lot of the time.

I'm worried that I'm not going to graduate. That would really screw me up...

So now what? I don't really want anything I can realistically have, so life seems pretty pointless now. This has gone on for too long.

The only thing that I still kind of enjoy doing is watching tv shows like dr who, and playing games that I can get lost in and forget the world. Music is good too. I'll listen to many records straight. Imagining i'm just watching the musicians play their music...

I've given up the idea of a relationship. I'm just too messed up.

What now?

[Vermilion]

Another year has gone by, and it seems like everything is exactly the same.
I'm currently on some antidepressants (not really working), and adhd meds (don't really work either).
I still have no motivation to do anything. Schoolwork is a huge mountain, going to school is difficult, reaching out to friends is stressful. I just spend the whole day inside or sleeping. I'm tired all the time. I don't feel like living sometimes... well, a lot of the time.

I'm worried that I'm not going to graduate. That would really screw me up...

So now what? I don't really want anything I can realistically have, so life seems pretty pointless now. This has gone on for too long.

The only thing that I still kind of enjoy doing is watching tv shows like dr who, and playing games that I can get lost in and forget the world. Music is good too. I'll listen to many records straight. Imagining i'm just watching the musicians play their music...

I've given up the idea of a relationship. I'm just too messed up.

What now?

Your under a lot of stress with school and worrying about your what next set ect. How long have you been on the antidepressants ? And other meds ? If not long give them some more time. However if it's been a while talk to your doctor. I love getting lost in video games and music only way I can escape from everything for a bit. I'm sure someone would be happy to have you as a partner in a relationship. Do you do any counseling ? If not I recommend it, it's a big relief to get everything of your chest. Your friend's care about you, so don't push them away.

[CharlieHorse]

Your under a lot of stress with school and worrying about your what next set ect. How long have you been on the antidepressants ? And other meds ? If not long give them some more time. However if it's been a while talk to your doctor. I love getting lost in video games and music only way I can escape from everything for a bit. I'm sure someone would be happy to have you as a partner in a relationship. Do you do any counseling ? If not I recommend it, it's a big relief to get everything of your chest. Your friend's care about you, so don't push them away.

Maybe, I've been like this throughout all of high school though :/.

I've been taking them for a year or so.
Maybe someone would be happy with me, but I'm not going to be able to be the person I would want to be for them. I'm not that great and I wouldn't be able to hold the relationship healthy. I need to be fixed first, or just give up. Giving up is easier.
I do counseling. Have for years. I'm not really going anywhere though.
I know, but it's getting harder and harder to keep in touch with them. I don't have any effort to put into the friendships. I can't do anything for them. I didn't maintain them, and now they're drifting away.
I'm not doing anything anyway. I never feel like talking to them...

I'm just kind of hopeless.

[Vermilion]

Maybe, I've been like this throughout all of high school though :/.

I've been taking them for a year or so.
Maybe someone would be happy with me, but I'm not going to be able to be the person I would want to be for them. I'm not that great and I wouldn't be able to hold the relationship healthy. I need to be fixed first, or just give up. Giving up is easier.
I do counseling. Have for years. I'm not really going anywhere though.
I know, but it's getting harder and harder to keep in touch with them. I don't have any effort to put into the friendships. I can't do anything for them. I didn't maintain them, and now they're drifting away.
I'm not doing anything anyway. I never feel like talking to them...

I'm just kind of hopeless.

I would talk to your doctor about changing meds or a higher level of the one your on. So your friends know what your going though ?
Don't give up you'll make something of your life you just need time. Don't worry about a relationship you need time to sort yourself out first

[CharlieHorse]

I would talk to your doctor about changing meds or a higher level of the one your on. So your friends know what your going though ?
Don't give up you'll make something of your life you just need time. Don't worry about a relationship you need time to sort yourself out first

yeah i'll talk to the doctor.
they vaguely know i'm depressed, but i haven't really talked to them about it. some i haven't seen or heard from in like 8 months... i think they think i'm dead.

I kind of need to be fixed now or else i'm going to fail school. i just don't care to help myself.

[Vermilion]

yeah i'll talk to the doctor.
they vaguely know i'm depressed, but i haven't really talked to them about it. some i haven't seen or heard from in like 8 months... i think they think i'm dead.

I kind of need to be fixed now or else i'm going to fail school. i just don't care to help myself.

If your comfortable tell the friends you see does the school know ?

[CharlieHorse]

If your comfortable tell the friends you see does the school know ?

the school?

the school doesn't know and it's not really something they can know...

idk

[Vermilion]

If the school knew you might get support with school Why can't they know ?

[CharlieHorse]

If the school knew you might get support with school Why can't they know ?

I don't know who to tell that would do any good.

They'll probably just try to help me in some way and fail and then give up and wish me the best.

[Vermilion]

You must have a school counselor or students support thing ?

[Atom]

What now?
Have you ever thought that the meds you're on right now cause this strong apathy you have?

Also, do you know why you have no motivation to do anything? You just don't care, afraid to fail or see it being pointless?

Also#2, if you do counseling for years and it's not helping then it is an obvious waste of money and you may want to: a) stop doing it; b) change the therapist you're visiting; c) tell said therapist that they aren't helping and that they should try a different approach.