Elvalight
April 19th, 2015, 08:41 PM
I'm sorry if this is in the wrong place, so please correct me if I'm wrong. I just didn't know where to put this.
Sorry, this is going to be kind of long.
Let me start by saying, since I've been homeschooled my whole life, I've been pretty sheltered. Other than a couple places I used to go when I was younger, I haven't really made any friends. Last year me and my sister went to a co-op that was teaching writing, and there were some other kids there.
At break-time, we'd have some time to meet the other kids. My mom told me to say hello to some of the girls, but they all were shy and talked among themselves during break-time. Outside, some boys were playing with a ball and playing tag and such. I'd look at them and want to join them, but I knew they'd feel uncomfortable since I was a girl. When I was younger, I loved to hang out with a couple of boys and joke, but now that I'm older, and they're gone, it just feels like if I went up and asked to join in, it wouldn't feel genuine. Because I'm a girl. I'm not like many girls my age, and I feel out of place in a group of them. But with boys I feel fine, except I know that at my age it'd be a problem to hang out with them, because of gender roles. I know that they'd treat me like a girl, not a boy. I just want to be like them, to look like them, and for them to treat me just like they would treat any other boy. But as long as I'm a girl, that won't happen. I tend to act like a boy, and dress like one, but it's not enough. It's always like that these days, and I just need some advice. If I really tried to befriend some boys, would they just treat me differently because I am a girl?
Sorry, this is going to be kind of long.
Let me start by saying, since I've been homeschooled my whole life, I've been pretty sheltered. Other than a couple places I used to go when I was younger, I haven't really made any friends. Last year me and my sister went to a co-op that was teaching writing, and there were some other kids there.
At break-time, we'd have some time to meet the other kids. My mom told me to say hello to some of the girls, but they all were shy and talked among themselves during break-time. Outside, some boys were playing with a ball and playing tag and such. I'd look at them and want to join them, but I knew they'd feel uncomfortable since I was a girl. When I was younger, I loved to hang out with a couple of boys and joke, but now that I'm older, and they're gone, it just feels like if I went up and asked to join in, it wouldn't feel genuine. Because I'm a girl. I'm not like many girls my age, and I feel out of place in a group of them. But with boys I feel fine, except I know that at my age it'd be a problem to hang out with them, because of gender roles. I know that they'd treat me like a girl, not a boy. I just want to be like them, to look like them, and for them to treat me just like they would treat any other boy. But as long as I'm a girl, that won't happen. I tend to act like a boy, and dress like one, but it's not enough. It's always like that these days, and I just need some advice. If I really tried to befriend some boys, would they just treat me differently because I am a girl?