Need advice on what to do about my situation

[Darktolight]

Hi, I joined this forum today to talk about what happened to my family, and would like advice, or anything really. It happened a few months ago, in December. First, I should say that I go to school a little under an hour away from my (old) home. The day before all this, I ate dinner with my mom. She had visited me on campus to see me and eat together. We did this, and talked a bunch and it was awesome as always. After the drive back to campus from the restaurant, she dropped me off and we said our goodbyes. This was a regular occurrence, as she would come visit me sometimes on weekends, or I would visit home. Also at home was my little sister and older brother living with my mom. So I went to bed that night after dinner, normal as always. A few hours after waking up the next day I get a text from my little sister saying she's coming to campus. I didn't quite know at the time why she was visiting me. She eventually gets there and I come down from my dorm to the entrance of the building to find her crying. This is when I found out. She tells me she didn't get picked up by mom from work, and mom wasn't answering her phone. She walks home (it's a 10min walk)... and finds my mom at home.. dead and in a lot of blood. My brother is missing, and so is my mom's car. She calls the police and so the house gets closed off and all that. I get a ride with my sister's friend's mom and with my sister back to the house. There is that yellow tape stuff cops use to close off crime scenes around the house. At this point I didn't know what to think or say or anything. A cop asks me questions about my mom, last time I saw her, my brother etc.

That's the story about what happened. My mom was killed by my brother, and he went missing. He was found within the week, several states away, and is now in jail. He has confessed to doing it. I live somewhere else now when not at college, which is where I am at this moment. Several things have happened since then, like the funeral, and seeing family, all that.

I think about it quite a lot, and I miss my mom like nothing else. She was my best friend, and was the most loving person on this planet. I'm not gonna have my mom in my life ever again, and I'm 21. What would you guys do? Would you want revenge on the brother you knew for 21 years? Would you hate him? Or forgive him? I don't know how to feel or what to think of it. I think I hate him, and want the worst for him, because when I think about how it happened, and when it happened and what was going through my mom's mind, and the fear she must have felt, I get incredibly angry.

Anyway that's what happened and I guess I'm just asking for help, or advice. Thanks.

[Let Me Be a Pony]

I'm sorry to hear that.I can't imagine the emotions you must be in when thinking of this, it's tough... ><
I wouldn't forgive him, i'd just try to get him off my mind. And revenge is always bad. He's in prison, he's gonna get wrecked up by inmates there when word spreads around about what he's done, count on that.
You need to get it off your mind, and some people might say "durh, everyone says to move on, but et eint ez as it soundz", but you need to try. You won't forget about that, that's for sure, but if you think about it everyday, then it will collapse your life.
He's gonna get his life turned into hell by inmates, trust me.

You can try watching some cartoons that you gazed on when you were little, you can write, try anything to channel those memories out. This ain't running away from what happened, it's only about relieving the stress of the past.
If you need somebody to vent out to, i'm here. And welcome to the forum, we're all here for you! hugs

[Vermilion]

Hi, I joined this forum today to talk about what happened to my family, and would like advice, or anything really. It happened a few months ago, in December. First, I should say that I go to school a little under an hour away from my (old) home. The day before all this, I ate dinner with my mom. She had visited me on campus to see me and eat together. We did this, and talked a bunch and it was awesome as always. After the drive back to campus from the restaurant, she dropped me off and we said our goodbyes. This was a regular occurrence, as she would come visit me sometimes on weekends, or I would visit home. Also at home was my little sister and older brother living with my mom. So I went to bed that night after dinner, normal as always. A few hours after waking up the next day I get a text from my little sister saying she's coming to campus. I didn't quite know at the time why she was visiting me. She eventually gets there and I come down from my dorm to the entrance of the building to find her crying. This is when I found out. She tells me she didn't get picked up by mom from work, and mom wasn't answering her phone. She walks home (it's a 10min walk)... and finds my mom at home.. dead and in a lot of blood. My brother is missing, and so is my mom's car. She calls the police and so the house gets closed off and all that. I get a ride with my sister's friend's mom and with my sister back to the house. There is that yellow tape stuff cops use to close off crime scenes around the house. At this point I didn't know what to think or say or anything. A cop asks me questions about my mom, last time I saw her, my brother etc.

That's the story about what happened. My mom was killed by my brother, and he went missing. He was found within the week, several states away, and is now in jail. He has confessed to doing it. I live somewhere else now when not at college, which is where I am at this moment. Several things have happened since then, like the funeral, and seeing family, all that.

I think about it quite a lot, and I miss my mom like nothing else. She was my best friend, and was the most loving person on this planet. I'm not gonna have my mom in my life ever again, and I'm 21. What would you guys do? Would you want revenge on the brother you knew for 21 years? Would you hate him? Or forgive him? I don't know how to feel or what to think of it. I think I hate him, and want the worst for him, because when I think about how it happened, and when it happened and what was going through my mom's mind, and the fear she must have felt, I get incredibly angry.

Anyway that's what happened and I guess I'm just asking for help, or advice. Thanks.

I'm so sorry I can't imagine what your going though. Have you spoke to your brother why he did it , do you have the whole picture of what caused him to do it ? I would hat him for it I'd always keep it In my mind however he must feel like shit for what he did remember that, nothing he can do will bring her back but he's still your brother. You've lost one big part of your family don't lose another. I know it won't be easy but you'll regret losing 2 people you love.

[Emerald Dream]

The OP is banned. :locked: