KimuraWannabe116
April 9th, 2015, 05:39 PM
Im not sure if this is where I should post this, but I have a LOT on my plate.
Im sick.
For the past 2 weeks, I've only been able to have 1 bowel movement, which was a week ago. I've battled digestive disorders for about 4 years now. When I was 12, I was coming off of a very nasty virus, and then I ended up being constipated for over a week. I told my dad, and he gave me remedies that helped clear my problem temporarily. Then the symptoms appeared about 2 weeks later, but was less often, only lasted up to at most 4 days. This would continue on until now. During this time, I knew something was wrong with my digestive system, but it wasn't severe enough for me to be concerned. Just last month, I was very optimistic about the future. I was and still am dealing with a hamstring injury sustained from lifting, but I thought once my hamstring gets better, i'll be able to take off from there, and live an awesome life. This illness has taken that hope away, and im concerned that this could be as severe as colon cancer...
I've started talking to my mother as of late, and it's the first time we've talked in over a year. I've never had her in my life due to her being incapable of taking care of me when I was younger, and with this, I haven't seen her in over 10 years. I found out who my mother is by finding court papers of my cousity, and I've communicated with her via facebook. Last week, I had the oppertunity of talking with my younger brother and sister last week, and it was great. I've told my mother i'm into lifting and martial arts, and of course, she told my sibilings. My brother wants me to teach him martial arts, and train him in lifting and all of that. My mother has said that he's been going through a tough time lately, and she thinks I can be a good influence on him as an older brother. I felt honored of that, and it made me feel proud. I love helping others physically, and it would be great if I have the oppertunity of doing this. I want to be able to meet them this summer, but if i'm ill, I wouldn't want them to see me that way.
Yet this is where this illness comes to play. Tomorrow, i'm telling my dad that i've been "constipated" for this time, and even if remedies do work this time, I will urge him to set up an appointment for a scan. I should not be dealing with these digestive issues at such a young age, and for so long. I am certain that what I have is big. It's an obstruction in my lower intestine, and that is usually a really bad sign... It could be diverticulitis, or even colon cancer (god forbid). I am almost certain that this isn't anything minor though, as for the past few days, i've devoted a lot of my time researching this stuff, and have prepared myself for the worst.
This is an extremely difficult time on my part. I have so much potential of becoming someone, and making positive inpacts on lives, yet I have to worry and prepare for these terrible things. If I do have cancer, I will do everything in my power to ensure I beat this, but if my quality of life is reduced, and the inpacts are permanent physically, undoubtly I would lose the desire to live. There would absolutely be no desire or reason for me to live on this earth if I can't fulfill what I want in my life, and in order for this, I need to be able to function physically. It's like asking someone to serve a prison sentence for 30 years for no apparent reason. I would have so many regrets, my dreams would be broken, and I would simply be depressed knowing that my potential is destroyed permanently, probably leading me to trying everything I can to die.
So I am hugely worried, and I don't want my future to be destroyed of what could be a really succesful and pleasurable one. The only things I want is to be able to live, and function properly. Everyone takes life for granted until they hit a brick wall, and believe me, it feels like i'm trying to smash a brick wall with only my fist. So please, enjoy life and your health, because it's not guaranteed. I've put my heart and soul into this post, and I just needed to say this. I will try to keep you guys posted.
Edit: I also think that the disorder I have may be Hirschsprung disease due to my age, and the fact that this also involves obstructions.
Im sick.
For the past 2 weeks, I've only been able to have 1 bowel movement, which was a week ago. I've battled digestive disorders for about 4 years now. When I was 12, I was coming off of a very nasty virus, and then I ended up being constipated for over a week. I told my dad, and he gave me remedies that helped clear my problem temporarily. Then the symptoms appeared about 2 weeks later, but was less often, only lasted up to at most 4 days. This would continue on until now. During this time, I knew something was wrong with my digestive system, but it wasn't severe enough for me to be concerned. Just last month, I was very optimistic about the future. I was and still am dealing with a hamstring injury sustained from lifting, but I thought once my hamstring gets better, i'll be able to take off from there, and live an awesome life. This illness has taken that hope away, and im concerned that this could be as severe as colon cancer...
I've started talking to my mother as of late, and it's the first time we've talked in over a year. I've never had her in my life due to her being incapable of taking care of me when I was younger, and with this, I haven't seen her in over 10 years. I found out who my mother is by finding court papers of my cousity, and I've communicated with her via facebook. Last week, I had the oppertunity of talking with my younger brother and sister last week, and it was great. I've told my mother i'm into lifting and martial arts, and of course, she told my sibilings. My brother wants me to teach him martial arts, and train him in lifting and all of that. My mother has said that he's been going through a tough time lately, and she thinks I can be a good influence on him as an older brother. I felt honored of that, and it made me feel proud. I love helping others physically, and it would be great if I have the oppertunity of doing this. I want to be able to meet them this summer, but if i'm ill, I wouldn't want them to see me that way.
Yet this is where this illness comes to play. Tomorrow, i'm telling my dad that i've been "constipated" for this time, and even if remedies do work this time, I will urge him to set up an appointment for a scan. I should not be dealing with these digestive issues at such a young age, and for so long. I am certain that what I have is big. It's an obstruction in my lower intestine, and that is usually a really bad sign... It could be diverticulitis, or even colon cancer (god forbid). I am almost certain that this isn't anything minor though, as for the past few days, i've devoted a lot of my time researching this stuff, and have prepared myself for the worst.
This is an extremely difficult time on my part. I have so much potential of becoming someone, and making positive inpacts on lives, yet I have to worry and prepare for these terrible things. If I do have cancer, I will do everything in my power to ensure I beat this, but if my quality of life is reduced, and the inpacts are permanent physically, undoubtly I would lose the desire to live. There would absolutely be no desire or reason for me to live on this earth if I can't fulfill what I want in my life, and in order for this, I need to be able to function physically. It's like asking someone to serve a prison sentence for 30 years for no apparent reason. I would have so many regrets, my dreams would be broken, and I would simply be depressed knowing that my potential is destroyed permanently, probably leading me to trying everything I can to die.
So I am hugely worried, and I don't want my future to be destroyed of what could be a really succesful and pleasurable one. The only things I want is to be able to live, and function properly. Everyone takes life for granted until they hit a brick wall, and believe me, it feels like i'm trying to smash a brick wall with only my fist. So please, enjoy life and your health, because it's not guaranteed. I've put my heart and soul into this post, and I just needed to say this. I will try to keep you guys posted.
Edit: I also think that the disorder I have may be Hirschsprung disease due to my age, and the fact that this also involves obstructions.