Should i change my self?

[Smithy3x]

Hey, i was thinking about changing my life. So currently i'm 14 and soon i will be 15, but I would love to get energy/insparation to get started from a new beginng.

Okay, so i'm currently not in school cause of mental problems but when i'm gonna start at school again i wanna try a fresh start and change my life. I'm not sure if i'm posting this the right place but ill just tell and explain a bit what I mean and hopefully some could give me advice or help me out a bit.

So i haven't been in school for about 3-4 months now and i don't feel good about it. But the thing is that the current school i'm in theres only up to 8'th grade (Danish system) And all my friends are about to move out and move on. I have to take 8 grade again because i missed a half year and my school stats are below middle. I'm slowly becomming more and more tierd of my self because i'm just at home and doing nothing. So i really want to start over again and begin to train my self in every posible way.

I have no idea what i want to be when i get older (Job) And i'm really afraid that i'm never gonna get on the track again. So i don't wanna come back to the school i'm used to. I know pretty much all on that school, and i can't live with my self if i gonna go in class below what i'm used to. Should i go on a big, Med or small school? I wanna start in good and meet new people and basicly life.

Alot of people are calling lazy, Annoying, Wierd, meaningless, idiot and stupid. I wanna change that, im also EXTREMELY Shy when it comes to being in front of a person or even just calling or chatting.

I'm also quite small for my age, i think i'm about 170~ cm tall about 50kg not muscles what so ever, weak at every single point and i'm really bad at sports (Clumsy) I wanna get strong, i wanna have a style. I look ugly as fuck right now, and got a shitty taste of clothing.

Would it be better to find a school with alot of people ? or a smaller amount?.. Please i need help. Thx for reading.

[Andyyy95]

Hey there,

It's nice to meet you, my name is Andy, 19 years old, and from London (UK). I've come across your post, and might be able to help you out a little, because I know someone who's in a position very similar to yours.

Firstly, have you spoken out your mental issues to anybody before? What about your previous school? Or at least are your parents aware of the problems you have at the moment? What have they said about it?

Secondly, I'm not sure how the Danish system works in terms of healthcare, but in the UK, we have a health service called the NHS, which does offer professional mental health support for those who require it, free of charge. Is there something of some kind in Denmark? I personally think it's definitely worth making use of the services you have available, I know somebody who is receiving (free) medication for mental health, and I've definitely seen a (positive) change in how they are as a person.

In terms of education, I suppose it all depends on what you / parents / doctor thinks I guess. Perhaps your school is able to offer some support, considering your circumstances? By that, I mean maybe they could stick you on a 'part-time' timetable on your own for a few hours each day/week, just so that you can get back into the swing of things again?

Or if that seems a little too daunting, maybe try one-to-one tuition for a bit? Just so that you're getting some form of education, but without the off-putting social atmosphere that you may get from school. Perhaps your school is able to offer such one-to-one support to you?

Alot of people are calling lazy, Annoying, Wierd, meaningless, idiot and stupid. I wanna change that, im also EXTREMELY Shy when it comes to being in front of a person or even just calling or chatting.

I don't know you, but I don't think you're any of that. Everybody is weird in their own ways, everybody is different/unique remember? I'm afraid that's what people can be like (sometimes), whether it's in school or outside school, and you've just got to be strong, stand up for yourself, and try to ignore it.

I hope that some of this will be beneficial to you, and I wish you all the very best for the future.

Meanwhile, if you need anything or anyone to talk to, don't hesitate to contact me :)

Have a good day!

Andy