Tesserax
April 5th, 2015, 02:09 AM
For the first time in my life, I've never felt so alone. Never before. A few of my closest friends, have shown to me how cruel they can be, that they're not good people, that they are disloyal, while others have just been dicks. One of my new friends who has grown very close to me within the span of a few days, isn't replying on facebook. I don't know if she's in trouble or something, or if she's ignoring me or just avoiding facebook to ignore me or I DON'T KNOW! I just feel so alone, I just want somebody I can trust, somebody that I know to talk to, and I don't know what to do :(
Edit: In addition, the demons are back because of it. My demons, that I had rid so triumphantly, are back. They eat away at me, the me on the inside, and that weakens my outer image, the way I look, my mask. I'm starting to lose control, I can't focus sometimes, I can't find the motivation to do my homework, and I feel scared of what's going to happen to my life. I try to look up but all I see is darkness :(
Edit: In addition, the demons are back because of it. My demons, that I had rid so triumphantly, are back. They eat away at me, the me on the inside, and that weakens my outer image, the way I look, my mask. I'm starting to lose control, I can't focus sometimes, I can't find the motivation to do my homework, and I feel scared of what's going to happen to my life. I try to look up but all I see is darkness :(