Uniquemind
April 1st, 2015, 04:55 AM
Is there someone who can relate to me or am I odd and my situation odd as well?
I have to start off with some context questions:
1. What and how are sexual topics treated when they are brought up in your house?
Were sexual topics full of blatant lies or were you trusted with the truth by your guardians or parents? Or did older siblings and friends teach you?
That said how does this affect your sexual development with the opposite sex growing up and how do you think it will impact you as an adult in both your sexual life and in relationships in general?
2. Do you think your sexual orientation was influenced by environmental factors surrounding emotional tension or variables brought up artificially by parents/guardian's style of raising you?
3. Did you believe in cooties as a child, and if you did was that belief ingrained into your mind from how you were raised or do you think humans naturally have an adversion to the opposite sex growing up? Is the battle of the sexes a cultural thing or a natural behavior as a species?
---- my story ----
For me I was raised in a household that put no shame or pressure on masturbation or sex, and I think it made it much easier for me to glide into the world of romance and sex with various partners, and have a confidence about it and myself, that my peers seem to lack or stumble through.
One aspect that I always felt, and still feel, sets me apart from my peers is that I never, even when I was young child of 4 or 5, never understood the battle of the sexes or agreed with the cooties concept. My understanding of who I would hang around was based on if I was treated kindly, and I felt no shame about it, despite being teased sometimes.
I also remember having crushes around that age, and very passionate makeout fantasies (locked lips, necking, trails of kisses, the inhaling of their scalp's scent) with said crushes that, when looking back, I still think is strange for one to have that young. The said fantasies were akin, to what actually happens in foreplay just to give a general sense of how intense my mind was purely on how it was digesting certain desires and feelings.
Perhaps I'm just a romantic-passionate person by nature, and perhaps that is genetic since personality is largely genetically influenced, but I also can't help but think the desire to touch this way is instinctive.
As a baby I was always held and looked after, and part of me wonders if that played a role in how I understood affection, and my brain linked the sensation of touch with the concept of receiving and displaying affection romantically as well.
Ultimately I want to know if others have memories, desires, and fantasies as they grew up that are similar to mine or if I was just some kinda emotionally precocious child oddball. Science says desires like lust and interest in the opposite sex doesn't start until puberty, but I've found that to be entirely false for me.
If there's anybody with memories of similar thought and desire please respond.
Feedback would be appreciated.
I don't know if I can receive Private Messages yet, but when I can I'll accept PM responses as well.
Thanks
P.S. I cannot stress strongly enough that I was never abused or touched inappropriately so all thoughts and urges and fantasies were of my own origin with no outside influence, and it would be a decade before I would be exposed to porn of any kind.
In fact, I was strictly taught that personal body space and consent were the only real important factors to pay attention to, and I did learn and respect this lesson at all times.
I have to start off with some context questions:
1. What and how are sexual topics treated when they are brought up in your house?
Were sexual topics full of blatant lies or were you trusted with the truth by your guardians or parents? Or did older siblings and friends teach you?
That said how does this affect your sexual development with the opposite sex growing up and how do you think it will impact you as an adult in both your sexual life and in relationships in general?
2. Do you think your sexual orientation was influenced by environmental factors surrounding emotional tension or variables brought up artificially by parents/guardian's style of raising you?
3. Did you believe in cooties as a child, and if you did was that belief ingrained into your mind from how you were raised or do you think humans naturally have an adversion to the opposite sex growing up? Is the battle of the sexes a cultural thing or a natural behavior as a species?
---- my story ----
For me I was raised in a household that put no shame or pressure on masturbation or sex, and I think it made it much easier for me to glide into the world of romance and sex with various partners, and have a confidence about it and myself, that my peers seem to lack or stumble through.
One aspect that I always felt, and still feel, sets me apart from my peers is that I never, even when I was young child of 4 or 5, never understood the battle of the sexes or agreed with the cooties concept. My understanding of who I would hang around was based on if I was treated kindly, and I felt no shame about it, despite being teased sometimes.
I also remember having crushes around that age, and very passionate makeout fantasies (locked lips, necking, trails of kisses, the inhaling of their scalp's scent) with said crushes that, when looking back, I still think is strange for one to have that young. The said fantasies were akin, to what actually happens in foreplay just to give a general sense of how intense my mind was purely on how it was digesting certain desires and feelings.
Perhaps I'm just a romantic-passionate person by nature, and perhaps that is genetic since personality is largely genetically influenced, but I also can't help but think the desire to touch this way is instinctive.
As a baby I was always held and looked after, and part of me wonders if that played a role in how I understood affection, and my brain linked the sensation of touch with the concept of receiving and displaying affection romantically as well.
Ultimately I want to know if others have memories, desires, and fantasies as they grew up that are similar to mine or if I was just some kinda emotionally precocious child oddball. Science says desires like lust and interest in the opposite sex doesn't start until puberty, but I've found that to be entirely false for me.
If there's anybody with memories of similar thought and desire please respond.
Feedback would be appreciated.
I don't know if I can receive Private Messages yet, but when I can I'll accept PM responses as well.
Thanks
P.S. I cannot stress strongly enough that I was never abused or touched inappropriately so all thoughts and urges and fantasies were of my own origin with no outside influence, and it would be a decade before I would be exposed to porn of any kind.
In fact, I was strictly taught that personal body space and consent were the only real important factors to pay attention to, and I did learn and respect this lesson at all times.