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March 19th, 2015, 06:06 PM
I just need to vent.
I have made many friends since moving at the end of 5th grade. However, there are only probably 3 I talk to the most because well we all function together. So I have always noticed person A to be quite feminine, but I disregarded it because we are just great friends and there isn't a reason to shut him out. I remember in 7th grade people would always come up and ask me if he was indeed gay and I honestly did not know so I always told them "No, I don't know". And I always talk with him in the hallways and we eat lunch together because the rest of our friends have a different lunch on certain days. So my really close friend, that everyone ships me with because we are almost always together, told me that I was the topic of discussion at one point in one of her classes because someone that person A and I were dating because of how often we are seen together. This part irks me the most. This is the second or third time someone has believed that I like someone that I am only friends with, and only assumes that ONLY because of how much we hang out. I laughed at the idea when and even told persons A+B who both laughed at such an outrageous idea. I actually liked Person B in 6th grade for quite some time but then realized that a friendship would be the best for us and in 7th grade someone told me she was a lesbian which of course, I assumed but dismissed that they were because I do not judge people and saw no reason in jumping to conclusions. What if she just liked to call [insert female singer] cute? Today I guess Person A and B felt that I was ready to be in the know of the fact that person A was in fact gay. I didn't know how I was supposed to react but honestly I'm fine with it. And person B has yet to come right out with the information, but they are indeed lesbian. (She tells me who she likes) I am proud that they came to me with this news and actually quite honored. Person C is not coming back in fall and I've always admired her. I've never told her but I am sure she knows. We are very close friends and she and I have been called "OTPs" and it's funny whenever it happens because I just laugh and say we're just friends but everyone thinks we should be together. Bur I don't want it to happen because all good things must come to an end, and it is already sort of sad to try and accept the fact that Person C who has been there since Day 1 of 6th grade, will see me one last time on the last day of 8th. I hope to have person A and B around for a long time because I trust them the most and feel comfortable around them. I just feel unready because never did I ever think I would be friends with such awesome people like A+B+C , it just wasn't what I expected when I was little and it just makes me feel like I need to be very cautious because if I say or do the wrong thing, then I could either lose or hurt those closest to me.
I did intend to offend anyone at all, I am a very accepting person.
I feel like this is written very poorly, but I just needed to vent somewhere and here is where it felt right. Severely mixed emotions after writing this but at least it's vented
I have made many friends since moving at the end of 5th grade. However, there are only probably 3 I talk to the most because well we all function together. So I have always noticed person A to be quite feminine, but I disregarded it because we are just great friends and there isn't a reason to shut him out. I remember in 7th grade people would always come up and ask me if he was indeed gay and I honestly did not know so I always told them "No, I don't know". And I always talk with him in the hallways and we eat lunch together because the rest of our friends have a different lunch on certain days. So my really close friend, that everyone ships me with because we are almost always together, told me that I was the topic of discussion at one point in one of her classes because someone that person A and I were dating because of how often we are seen together. This part irks me the most. This is the second or third time someone has believed that I like someone that I am only friends with, and only assumes that ONLY because of how much we hang out. I laughed at the idea when and even told persons A+B who both laughed at such an outrageous idea. I actually liked Person B in 6th grade for quite some time but then realized that a friendship would be the best for us and in 7th grade someone told me she was a lesbian which of course, I assumed but dismissed that they were because I do not judge people and saw no reason in jumping to conclusions. What if she just liked to call [insert female singer] cute? Today I guess Person A and B felt that I was ready to be in the know of the fact that person A was in fact gay. I didn't know how I was supposed to react but honestly I'm fine with it. And person B has yet to come right out with the information, but they are indeed lesbian. (She tells me who she likes) I am proud that they came to me with this news and actually quite honored. Person C is not coming back in fall and I've always admired her. I've never told her but I am sure she knows. We are very close friends and she and I have been called "OTPs" and it's funny whenever it happens because I just laugh and say we're just friends but everyone thinks we should be together. Bur I don't want it to happen because all good things must come to an end, and it is already sort of sad to try and accept the fact that Person C who has been there since Day 1 of 6th grade, will see me one last time on the last day of 8th. I hope to have person A and B around for a long time because I trust them the most and feel comfortable around them. I just feel unready because never did I ever think I would be friends with such awesome people like A+B+C , it just wasn't what I expected when I was little and it just makes me feel like I need to be very cautious because if I say or do the wrong thing, then I could either lose or hurt those closest to me.
I did intend to offend anyone at all, I am a very accepting person.
I feel like this is written very poorly, but I just needed to vent somewhere and here is where it felt right. Severely mixed emotions after writing this but at least it's vented