hate love and life and everything else

[fidder]

Just found out that my ldr gf of 10 months and a half has had a boyfriend in school this whole time... i was her puppet :/ ive never felt this alone, ive even texted my ex and asked for help even though i swore swore i wouldnt talk to her again because she cheated on me, i never see my mom and my dad doesnt care about us, he left us and i have no friends, im about to move into a smaller home than where i already am and have to share 1 room with 2 other people... I only have 50 credits and i need 220 to graduate from high school, my only question that i ask myself is why i dont kill myself, i guess i still have a little hope for a decent life ahead of me, but ending does sound nice too, if you understand my situation completely, what would you do?

[Vermilion]

I know you must feel used and upset with the relationship no one would expect anything different. I'm sure you'll be able to get the credits you need, try and focus on your future and not what is happening at the moment. I know death feels like a good choice I've been thinking like that for years but think about the affects of your death would have on people around you and what life has a head for you its still your choice. Please don't give up on life. Message me if you want to talk more.

[fidder]

I just feel so lost and hopeless man, im mad but heartbroken at the same time, this sucks so bad but the worst part is i still love her and wish it could work :/

[Vermilion]

If you want her and she wants you I'd give her a second chance, you being mad just shows how much she means to you. The more you try to forget about it the more you will think about her so ask yourself is it worth it ?. You could try being just friends but, I find it hard we my ex cos I still have feelings for her.

[fidder]

We talked about it and she dumped him while we were video chatting, she called him through her home phone and put it on speaker and was honest with him, and he seems to either respect it or didnt care at all. Now we're just trying to be honest with each other and she's telling me everything that she had lied about which wasnt anything big, we video chatted all day today and worked things out, she even unfriended and blocked him on social networks and even let me have her password so she could earn my trust. I am surprised that she would choose me over someone who can be there physically and i asked her why she did this and she said that even though i could be there in person, i still gave her more attention than he ever did and spent more time with her. I might just be the happiest person alive right now:)