So tired.

[Leprous]

I'm so fucking tired, so motherfucking tired of being the victim. Every mistake I make, they will constantly laugh at me for them. But if I do something right, nobody notices. I'm tired of being ignored, I'm tired of being abused by everyone.

Friends turn their backs on me, I feel like I can barely trust anyone as they'll all leave me alone eventually. I relapsef last night, after more than 2 months of being clean, I failed again. I hate school, I hate my family, I hate life. I can't see a professional because that'll only make things worse with my parents.

Right now all I can think of is the fact I wanna die. I have to go to school soon, which means I'm gonna get pushed around and broken even more. Nobody will ever love me or trust me, because nobody fucking understands what I've been trough the past year. All they do is hurt me.

[WanderingHeart]

It sucks.
I'm so tired.
Why should I even try anymore?
F*** this!

I'm not going to tell you things will get better and this is only temporary. I'm not going to give you all that hopeful sappy crap people have been giving me. I'm going to give you the truth.

Life sucks. Your life sucks, my life sucks. Our lives suck. Don't die just yet though. Before you make plans for suicide, I suggest seeing a therapist as I currently am. If you feel you aren't safe to yourself get into a hospital. It's pretty relaxing there from my experience.
I'm stuck in a rut at the moment, so maybe I'm not the best person to reply to this.
But just know that before you do anything dangerous, tell someone.

[Baileyy]

I'm so fucking tired, so motherfucking tired of being the victim. Every mistake I make, they will constantly laugh at me for them. But if I do something right, nobody notices. I'm tired of being ignored, I'm tired of being abused by everyone.

Friends turn their backs on me, I feel like I can barely trust anyone as they'll all leave me alone eventually. I relapsef last night, after more than 2 months of being clean, I failed again. I hate school, I hate my family, I hate life. I can't see a professional because that'll only make things worse with my parents.

Right now all I can think of is the fact I wanna die. I have to go to school soon, which means I'm gonna get pushed around and broken even more. Nobody will ever love me or trust me, because nobody fucking understands what I've been trough the past year. All they do is hurt me.

It sucks.
I'm so tired.
Why should I even try anymore?
F*** this!

I'm not going to tell you things will get better and this is only temporary. I'm not going to give you all that hopeful sappy crap people have been giving me. I'm going to give you the truth.

Life sucks. Your life sucks, my life sucks. Our lives suck. Don't die just yet though. Before you make plans for suicide, I suggest seeing a therapist as I currently am. If you feel you aren't safe to yourself get into a hospital. It's pretty relaxing there from my experience.
I'm stuck in a rut at the moment, so maybe I'm not the best person to reply to this.
But just know that before you do anything dangerous, tell someone.

Hello to both of you.

Unlike PartyPoison789 said, I'm very much so going to tell you that things will get better, and before you go ahead and perhaps just shut me down, hear me out.

We develop as humans, all of the time, we're constantly learning and we're constantly piecing together our own characters and personalities; and for some people - that isn't too easy. You are correct. Life does suck, there are a hell of a lot of years, months and hours to be had that are going to straight up hate and despise, you're going to come across people who you simply do not like and you are going to be put into situations that you don't enjoy - but whateevr you do, don't let these specific events sum up your life!

Among this "life that sucks", there are many many many happy moments to be had! While it sucks learning, school pressures you, people judge - there is marriage, there is love, there are friends and there is family. These things are precious, and so are you. Don't give up, things get better.

[WanderingHeart]

I think it's better for your health if you listen to the person above me rather than what I said.

[Baileyy]

I think it's better for your health if you listen to the person above me rather than what I said.

You are right, though, PartyPoison!

Life does suck sometimes, but you have to remember that your life is precious. The universe is lightyears large, and we are the dust of the galaxy, but YOU have life, and I know you think I'm just trying to make you feel special, and I know you think that because people say this all of the time; but I want you to take me seriously, this stranger (me), take me seriously once.

You're a life in this massive universe, that has to count for something! Your life is a gift, make it memorable! :)

Feel free to message me guys, if you want! :)

[WanderingHeart]

Honestly we do need to make life memorable. I believe in an afterlife that will go on for eternity after you die.

And if nobody around you is going to help with that, it's time to start taking matters into your own hands.

[Leprous]

PartyPoison789 and Pokebails I can't just go and get professional help, that's the problem. My parents will freak out and get me even more stressed. I simply can't tell anyone.

[WanderingHeart]

I know the feeling. Parents suck -.-