crying suck big time

[hurting]

sitting here in bed at 7pm,just crying my eyes out,like there nother left inside of me to come out of my eyes right now. all i can think about is all the abuse which happer to me,and it hell right now. i have nother more to give. im so close to doing bad things to my self. im sitting here looking at pills,and i dont know what to do.im the end of things. my world is falling apart,and i cant deal with this no more. it just too hard.going to lay and close my eyes,and just hope this pain will go away or something.frist time i was sexal abuse was when i was like 5.i hate this life so much..

[Screw Attack]

Oi, sounds like you've got big problems, I'm sorry for the things you went through. Is there someone you can reach for help?

[runner 19]

Oi, sounds like you've got big problems, I'm sorry for the things you went through. Is there someone you can reach for help?some people just can't be happy. Some people aren't meant for love and stuff I guess. I feel really shitty lately cuz I know I'm not gonna find anyone. I'm really nice but no one wants a relationship with me. Being gay is rough. Idk what really to do. I cry like a very night worrying if my other friend is okay and morning the loss of my other friend. I just want a relationship with a guy who is gonna care about me and love me for who I am.

[Screw Attack]

some people just can't be happy. Some people aren't meant for love and stuff I guess. I feel really shitty lately cuz I know I'm not gonna find anyone. I'm really nice but no one wants a relationship with me. Being gay is rough. Idk what really to do. I cry like a very night worrying if my other friend is okay and morning the loss of my other friend. I just want a relationship with a guy who is gonna care about me and love me for who I am.

Don't worry man, you'll eventually find the person you want. I know this sounds weird but how about you try to focus on something else? Hobby, job etc. Something that makes you happy. This way, you have something to fall back on when you're down. And also this way, you can find someone who is into the same things as you. Stay optimistic buddy.

If you think people around you are taking you for granted though, tell them. It will make a difference.

[runner 19]

I did and it was a big mistake. Keeping stuff to myself is better. Saves people the pain. And I do have a friend that I can talk to, I just don't want to burden him with my stuff.

[Listener]

I did and it was a big mistake. Keeping stuff to myself is better. Saves people the pain. And I do have a friend that I can talk to, I just don't want to burden him with my stuff.

It's OK. If you find the person who is right for you, they will not only accept you for you. They will also be willing to help you face your pain. :) Just hang in their.