I don't know what's wrong with me...

[WanderingHeart]

I'm suicidal and a masochist by the way.

I like to imagine myself getting murdered. Shot, beaten, hurt badly.
I like to imagine myself physically hurt.
I like that feeling, I'm addicted to it.
I'm always thinking about it, and the thoughts and feelings don't go away.
I love it so much, I just wish for it to happen to me.

[tasminsmith]

I'm suicidal and a masochist by the way.



what's a masochist?

[Abhorrence]

Best to talk to a therapist about it honestly.

[WanderingHeart]

I have no idea why I'm like this.

[ComfortableInChaos]

MoonlightDemons had the best suggestion. Not many people here will be able to answer why because I don't think many people really feel the same way you do.

[WanderingHeart]

I see a therapist lady at school.
Idk, guess I'll have to talk to her and see what happens.

[ChaosEarthquake]

I'm suicidal and a masochist by the way.

I like to imagine myself getting murdered. Shot, beaten, hurt badly.
I like to imagine myself physically hurt.
I like that feeling, I'm addicted to it.
I'm always thinking about it, and the thoughts and feelings don't go away.
I love it so much, I just wish for it to happen to me.

Same....

[jenni31]

Find a therapist who specializes with this disorder