The Ticket out.

[Smithy3x]

Easy way to do it?
Any good working things?:confused:

[queenofcontrariety]

Easy way to do it?
Any good working things?:confused:

What are you asking for? please elaborate on your issue that way people can help you better. I'm reading it as you looking for an easy way to kill yourself, and that sets off all kinds of bells and alarms, but you may not mean that at all. That's the issue with ambiguity. I mean you could be asking for easy ways to be less depressed or get over the loss of someone important, which there are no "easy" solutions, but there are management techniques that lots of people would be happy to share. Update your question and I, like everyone else here, would be happy to see what we can do to help

[SethfromMI]

before I answer I need more about what you mean

[Smithy3x]

I'm sorry for No info. Where i live it was 4 in morning and i was just upset and tierd. But Yes, a way out of life. I'm really fucked-up atm. I don't want to fight for something so stupid. I don't have the "yay" Power to step out of bed and do anything. I just smacking my face and pulling my hair cause im extremly mad at my self. Sorry.

[queenofcontrariety]

Well I'm sorry you're feeling that way, but suicide is not the solution. It is never the solution. You don't have to get out of bed rn. You don't have to fake a smile. The first step should always be asking for help, which you're doing, it's just you're asking for the wrong kind of help. Talk to friends, parents, a doctor, or councilor about how you're feeling and maybe finding a root cause. It's easy to give up and hate ourselves but there's a reason for everyone to stick around. You've found a group of people here to help, but this is a place for support and healing, not one where you'll find answers like how to end it all. Take some time to think about, and if you need anything that would be beneficial and productive we're here to help

[Smithy3x]

Well I'm sorry you're feeling that way, but suicide is not the solution. It is never the solution. You don't have to get out of bed rn. You don't have to fake a smile. The first step should always be asking for help, which you're doing, it's just you're asking for the wrong kind of help. Talk to friends, parents, a doctor, or councilor about how you're feeling and maybe finding a root cause. It's easy to give up and hate ourselves but there's a reason for everyone to stick around. You've found a group of people here to help, but this is a place for support and healing, not one where you'll find answers like how to end it all. Take some time to think about, and if you need anything that would be beneficial and productive we're here to help

Hey thx. but my mom and dad have send me to all sorts of Dr. Im also on Anti-Dep wich i dont feel is working. I just hate being infront of a person.

No i def dont wanna talk to my mom and dad. Friend either. Its not thier problem.. Its my problem and i dont want any people i know to work on 1 life that can end in a sap.

And yes Suicide is a Solution. U dont have to do anything after that then im done with 100%+ of my problems

Anyway thx alot

[queenofcontrariety]

Hey thx. but my mom and dad have send me to all sorts of Dr. Im also on Anti-Dep wich i dont feel is working. I just hate being infront of a person.

No i def dont wanna talk to my mom and dad. Friend either. Its not thier problem.. Its my problem and i dont want any people i know to work on 1 life that can end in a sap.

And yes Suicide is a Solution. U dont have to do anything after that then im done with 100%+ of my problems

Anyway thx alot

If it's an option call your doctor and see if you can add a booster to your meds or switch them up. I know I can call my therapist anytime of the day, I usually don't, but it's an option. My dad has always given me a lot of good advice on the topic of suicide, like it's a temporary solution to a permanent problem, it's understanable that you have a lot of issues and you don't want to face them, but even if you can't see it now there's always something in the future and it just takes some time to see it. I don't know how old you are, but there are something we can't see or cope with until we've been around the block a couple times. two or three years ago I never would've thought I'd be where I am now, I still have issues, but they're different and I'm learning to deal with them. Time heals all wounds, and if it can't heal them it atleast lessens them.

[Smithy3x]

If it's an option call your doctor and see if you can add a booster to your meds or switch them up. I know I can call my therapist anytime of the day, I usually don't, but it's an option. My dad has always given me a lot of good advice on the topic of suicide, like it's a temporary solution to a permanent problem, it's understanable that you have a lot of issues and you don't want to face them, but even if you can't see it now there's always something in the future and it just takes some time to see it. I don't know how old you are, but there are something we can't see or cope with until we've been around the block a couple times. two or three years ago I never would've thought I'd be where I am now, I still have issues, but they're different and I'm learning to deal with them. Time heals all wounds, and if it can't heal them it atleast lessens them.

Im sorry to hear that you have sufferd from it. Im 14 male. I think i gonna get out of control and thats one of the ressons why i want to do it. But im scared too. I have already been increased in medicine and have switchedro another type wich dosent seems to work. I dont want to call a doctor to tell about my problems. I like to keep things safe and nobody (example this site.. No one knows who i am and thats the good thing about the Net)

[queenofcontrariety]

Im sorry to hear that you have sufferd from it. Im 14 male. I think i gonna get out of control and thats one of the ressons why i want to do it. But im scared too. I have already been increased in medicine and have switchedro another type wich dosent seems to work. I dont want to call a doctor to tell about my problems. I like to keep things safe and nobody (example this site.. No one knows who i am and thats the good thing about the Net)

You have a whole lot of time ahead of you, it's definitely a rough age and your hormones are definitely changing so that may have to do with some of your feelings. You seem empathetic, which is more than what can be said about most people, and that trait right there is reason enough to *try* to tough it out. It's hard to talk about our personal weaknesses, if I had a dollar for every lie or half truth I've told in the last 3 years... it's important to talk about what we're dealing with, people really do care and want to see you succeed, and whatever success means for you. It's very different for me than it is for my younger autistic brother. Everything is relative, so try to relate to others

[Smithy3x]

You have a whole lot of time ahead of you, it's definitely a rough age and your hormones are definitely changing so that may have to do with some of your feelings. You seem empathetic, which is more than what can be said about most people, and that trait right there is reason enough to *try* to tough it out. It's hard to talk about our personal weaknesses, if I had a dollar for every lie or half truth I've told in the last 3 years... it's important to talk about what we're dealing with, people really do care and want to see you succeed, and whatever success means for you. It's very different for me than it is for my younger autistic brother. Everything is relative, so try to relate to others

Thank you so much for keep replying<3. It means alot to me but im still very unsure. But im so fucked up right now that it will take years (acording to me and my doctor) to recorver everything. But still, I get theese feeling where i dont want a future anymore cause theres no resson and that kinda a big thing that hurts me. Im not sure if im just a big mistake or a big lie. I want to help people and im trying my best but i cant look after my self anymore.

EDIT: + I kinda want someone to like me but. Im so ugly and un-attractive i dont know what to do. I never had a Gf, or even spoke with a girl like face to face. or even facebook. I smell like crap and im so lazy that i can fell over my own legs. and no one wants a fucking idiot and lazy ass shit as their partner. (Sorry for bad attitude)

[queenofcontrariety]

Thank you so much for keep replying<3. It means alot to me but im still very unsure. But im so fucked up right now that it will take years (acording to me and my doctor) to recorver everything. But still, I get theese feeling where i dont want a future anymore cause theres no resson and that kinda a big thing that hurts me. Im not sure if im just a big mistake or a big lie. I want to help people and im trying my best but i cant look after my self.

Everyone needs someone to reply and I went through all my issues before I found VT, so I know how it feels to do it alone. Everyone feels like a fraud, it's a basic human complex. As for the future, I tend to think about mine way too much and my doctor realizes it's my coping mechanism but I don't have a great view of the immediate future. If you can't have this grand scheme vision live day to day or week to week. Focus on what's right ahead, set little milestones or things to live for and it makes it easier. Recovery is a long road, and you don't know where it will lead, but it's important to helping ourselves and those who care about us. It seems like it'll be along time but eventually it all starts flying by

[Smithy3x]

Everyone needs someone to reply and I went through all my issues before I found VT, so I know how it feels to do it alone. Everyone feels like a fraud, it's a basic human complex. As for the future, I tend to think about mine way too much and my doctor realizes it's my coping mechanism but I don't have a great view of the immediate future. If you can't have this grand scheme vision live day to day or week to week. Focus on what's right ahead, set little milestones or things to live for and it makes it easier. Recovery is a long road, and you don't know where it will lead, but it's important to helping ourselves and those who care about us. It seems like it'll be along time but eventually it all starts flying by

Okay thank you so much, but i don't know if its the right topic/section for this question. How can i be a cool guy that is not shy and wanna party and do crazy stuff?.. Is there a drug or something that can help me out?

Cause i read all these "Survyes" (Cant spell it correctly sorry)Where people talk about what they have experinced. Like Made out with a Girl at the age of 10-16 wich makes me so damn sad. I wanna be that guy. Not the guy at the corner just waiting to something to happend. I pretty much spend all my years between 9-where i am now, just playing video games and never faced a person. I'm not in school right now cause i have school problems so im home and have nothing to do than reading posts on VT. I gotta take a year back again but i dont know if i should try choose a big school or a small school. Cause the current school im in theres not even 60 students. theres 8 people in my class and only 2 girls. so what can i do?, if its way out of your mind its okay im not a normal person. I want to punish my self for everything i do because i want to do better but i cant :(

[queenofcontrariety]

Okay thank you so much, but i don't know if its the right topic/section for this question. How can i be a cool guy that is not shy and wanna party and do crazy stuff?.. Is there a drug or something that can help me out?

Cause i read all these "Survyes" (Cant spell it correctly sorry)Where people talk about what they have experinced. Like Made out with a Girl at the age of 10-16 wich makes me so damn sad. I wanna be that guy. Not the guy at the corner just waiting to something to happend. I pretty much spend all my years between 9-where i am now, just playing video games and never faced a person. I'm not in school right now cause i have school problems so im home and have nothing to do than reading posts on VT. I gotta take a year back again but i dont know if i should try choose a big school or a small school. Cause the current school im in theres not even 60 students. theres 8 people in my class and only 2 girls. so what can i do?, if its way out of your mind its okay im not a normal person. I want to punish my self for everything i do because i want to do better but i cant :(
You're 14, when I was 14 I almost killed myself because my best friend turned boyfriend broke up with me and I was so absorbed in our relationship that I didn't realize that I had no other friends. I felt utterly alone and like total shit and had my mom telling me that no one would care if I was dead or alive. Relationships don't make things better, and I'm not saying wait until you're 25 to date, wait until you know yourself a little better. As for school, I'm an overachiever and pressure myself way too much, it's easy to be lost in a big school, but small schools turn all eyes on you, try to find something medium sized like 400-800 kids, if you have a choice. There's a societal pressure of what's expected of each gender, and I personally am guilty of forgetting that society confines guys too. But don't feel like you have to be super out going or some macho guy, every girl likes different things, some actually want mousy guys who will listen to them, it doesn't matter. Don't change yourself to attract someone else. If you want to be more out going, try a little, but don't think that it's something you have to do

[Smithy3x]

You're 14, when I was 14 I almost killed myself because my best friend turned boyfriend broke up with me and I was so absorbed in our relationship that I didn't realize that I had no other friends. I felt utterly alone and like total shit and had my mom telling me that no one would care if I was dead or alive. Relationships don't make things better, and I'm not saying wait until you're 25 to date, wait until you know yourself a little better. As for school, I'm an overachiever and pressure myself way too much, it's easy to be lost in a big school, but small schools turn all eyes on you, try to find something medium sized like 400-800 kids, if you have a choice. There's a societal pressure of what's expected of each gender, and I personally am guilty of forgetting that society confines guys too. But don't feel like you have to be super out going or some macho guy, every girl likes different things, some actually want mousy guys who will listen to them, it doesn't matter. Don't change yourself to attract someone else. If you want to be more out going, try a little, but don't think that it's something you have to do

Im really sorry to hear what you have been through(Dont knw if im spelling it right) But is it allowed to tell Real life stuff on VT and what you please tell me a bit more about yourself ( if you want to ) I just like to talk to people and get to know them and how other people feel. I know you are a girl but if its alright with you could you tell me some stuff? Im really sad what you have been through and i want to know more (if posible) If you dont want to share its fine but just so you know it, I feel really bad about that, i hope you are doing better :)

[queenofcontrariety]

Im really sorry to hear what you have been through(Dont knw if im spelling it right) But is it allowed to tell Real life stuff on VT and what you please tell me a bit more about yourself ( if you want to ) I just like to talk to people and get to know them and how other people feel. I know you are a girl but if its alright with you could you tell me some stuff? Im really sad what you have been through and i want to know more (if posible) If you dont want to share its fine but just so you know it, I feel really bad about that, i hope you are doing better :)

I mean I'm fine now, that's happened almost 2 years ago, the point of all this was to show you that it's possible to make it out. I dealt with all that without treatment and I'm still unmedicated (though I probably should be), it's only been the last like 5 months I guess that I've been going to therapy and I only go like once a month. I still have my issues but I know where I'm going with everything now. I want to be an engineer and do research and development in food manufacturing. I was actually bullied and harassed last year for being a girl and wanting to be an engineer, but I've developed a pretty thick skin because of it. As for VT rules there are limits, but the only way this site works it by sharing, as long as it's appropriate and won't trigger others (unless you dictate it as a trigger and put a warning). I hope you're feeling a little better now that you see that people can come out of dark places

[Smithy3x]

I mean I'm fine now, that's happened almost 2 years ago, the point of all this was to show you that it's possible to make it out. I dealt with all that without treatment and I'm still unmedicated (though I probably should be), it's only been the last like 5 months I guess that I've been going to therapy and I only go like once a month. I still have my issues but I know where I'm going with everything now. I want to be an engineer and do research and development in food manufacturing. I was actually bullied and harassed last year for being a girl and wanting to be an engineer, but I've developed a pretty thick skin because of it. As for VT rules there are limits, but the only way this site works it by sharing, as long as it's appropriate and won't trigger others (unless you dictate it as a trigger and put a warning). I hope you're feeling a little better now that you see that people can come out of dark places

Yea, i feel a little better but not much. Thanks for sharing with me, im really glad you made it out of the most. I think its awesome that you want to be an Engineer, i cant really see what those people had a problem with that. My IQ is just not good enough to get a decent job. Thx for sharing. ;)