Can't stop crying

[Dalcourt]

I'm really in bad shape at the moment. I'm feeling more depressed than I felt in years. I hardly manage to get up in the morning and go to school and stuff. When I'm around people I feel like a zombie, I can't interact or even listen to them and just zone out if someone talks to me for longer than two minutes. I just cannot muster the strength to focus my brain on listening. All I feel like doing is sleeping and crying.

I've been crying everyday now for more than three weeks. I don't feel like I have a particular reason I just feel overall extremely sad and anxious.

Anxiousness is also an issue again lately...sometimes I'm must in my bed at night and start getting panic attacks out of nowhere.

I've been home from school now for a few days, too as I was severely ill and I really want to go back on Monday even if the doctor said I shouldn't cuz I feel like the longer I stay away the less I want to go back. I don't like this school and the people there and if I don't force myself back on Monday I feel I don't have the strength to go back anymore.

I just don't know what's wrong with me. I haven't felt so bad in ages. I don't know why I feel this way and what to do to get better.

I don't want to bother my Dad with it either cuz he just hasn't the nerve and the money to take care of this now...he's got his own problems to deal with.

I just want to feel better again as I can't do this any longer. At the moment I really feel increasingly like ending it forever.

[James Dean]

Have you tried going out for walks? Just get a music player or whatever and just walk through the park for thirty minutes or so and take with you some cold water.

Is someone bullying you at school? Do you feel like you don't fit in? Is really going to a different school going to help? I don't think you have done everything to deal with this.

Being depressed is normal, but I don't want you feel hopeless. There are always solutions to issues and new things you can explore to calm yourself down. We can talk through with this more.