I don't fit in...at all

[GeneralMiscellaneous]

I'm in 9th grade in my first year on high school. Before I came to high school we had people talk to the grade about how great it will be and how fun it is, but to be honest it fucking sucks. Instead of getting new friends I lost a couple who went to new schools. The ones that I still have are starting to drift away to other groups of friends. As of right now I only have 2 good friends. I also don't have a girlfriend or any friends that are girls for that matter. Instead socializing at lunch with friends I'm usually in the library with nothing to do, but study for some classes. When I do go to the lunch room I usually sit there playing with most of the food I don't eat because the school food is gross. But I have to eat something or I'll just be hungry for the 6 hours of miserable school. I'm not in any sports or school clubs because I don't like a lot of them, especially sports. It's not like I don't care about fitness because I work out 5-6 days a week.

The only good thing that comes out of studying in the library is my grades. I have all A's and a couple B's. But School is just my least favorite thing. I hate waking up at 5 and spending hours a night working on home work for my honors classes. I hate my math teach the most because she is a dumb fuck who doesn't know how to teach. Also I can't stand learning the shit I don't need in life. For example take Romeo and Juliet, I can guarantee that Shakespeare and his plays don't matter at all. And I get really pissed off when teachers try to say that it does.

I guess to wrap it up, I'm miserable in high school because of school itself and that I'm a social outcast. Sorry about complaining so much.

[JamesSuperBoy]

Its ok to vent here - lots do.
I guess overall school lunches are not the best but have you thought about a packed lunch from home. Maybe a day or two skip the study at lunch time if you can and hang out with others.

[OSUBuckEyes]

I experienced some of that early on man. I was fat, out of shape, kinda anti social and depressed. Then I found some activities I liked and lost wait start played sports again and it's all different. I mean I did that stuff back in the day but hit a rough patch during middle school and stopped. I think it's about finding your niche. Maybe its not be a jock and into sports but it exists for you bro.....

[Jackrabbit7]

Yea, life kinda sucked my the first year and a half of HS. None of my friends went to my school, I was just awkward and had social anxiety, and I just didn't fit in. But like Michael said, its about finding your niche and people that you like. H.S is about finding your self and figuring out who you are, and learning about the world. For me, I just had to get over my self and learn how to interact with people. I started changing my style but not who I was and my morals as a person. I made a list of thing I wanted to improve in my life and made sure I worked towards one each day.

But yea, SCHOOL SUCKS TOO, theirs so much useless crap that they make you do. But you just have to except it and look toward the future. Have a positive attitude and realize that this is just the tutorial that you have to click through before you start the game of your life. This is the place where your learn how to interact with people so you can have fun in college or wherever you go in life. Do thing that make you happy, TV shows, running, reading, skiing, skateboarding, guitar, whatever ~ LIFE GETS BETTER ~