Lost the urge to create

[LTthal]

Well...Hi.
I'm not the type of person who would write in a forum, because I think it's too direct, and that it what I try not to do when I'm doing the only thing that I good at - Making film and music. I try to be as symbolic as I can and make the viewer/listener to figure out the big questions and answers themselves. But in the past year I've been feeling like that urge to create is gone. Sometimes I try to keep my feet on the boat and write anther script, but it goes away in a second.
The thing is - I do want to keep doing what I like (If I really still like it, and if not, then what do I like? It was the only thing that I cared about. If I don't like making films - then I like nothing). It's not like I'm getting frustrated because the films are bad (sorry for being a prick for a sec), I know that people like the things I do. But for some reason, I don't seem to enjoy the craft that I'm the most interested by and feel the most comfortable and fluent with its language. I haven't wrote a single new script since October, but - I have so many great ideas. I haven't written OR EVEN PLAYED my piano for a few months now, and if I get the motivation to look at it for a second and try, the keyboard seem so foreign to me. Things that made sense - don't.
Everything is like that. It's like that part of the brain that used to be me is shutting down. I don't feel like I'm different anymore from other people, but I also don't feel like I'm 'mainstream'. I don't feel like anything. I feel like a robot with no task.

This was just one thing that I feel is wrong with me.
Thank you for reading thing.
If you have any ideas of what's happening with me, or you have felt it and have some advise -- please. Anything is appreciated.
Ok...Now it's too long for anybody to care, so I better go. Bye!

[amgb]

Hi ! I understand and have felt this way before and I do have advice but not everything works for everyone, so you probably need to find something that will work for you individually. But I think this is the right forum to post in, and I'm glad you were able to be open about how you've been feeling lately. Loss of motivation and loss of interest in activities previously enjoyed are signs of depression. I'm not saying you have it, I'm saying they are signs. But I think you definitely need to keep an eye out on other things to see what the reason behind this is - Has your diet/sleeping pattern/general mood changed lately? Have you started to isolate yourself from everyone around you? Are you having sudden or frequent feelings of being totally drained or tearful? Have you been experiencing any dark and unpleasant thoughts? - I'm thinking this is depression, and if it's not then my second thoughts are that maybe you have recently experienced a big/small life event that could've maybe impacted you badly and pushed you into a depressed state that I'm sure will pass. You probably need to tell someone about this, because that's about all I can think of for now. As for dealing with this, I think the best cure would be to talk to someone about it. Feel free to post me a visitor's message, I will be happy to help and listen if you need to talk more~

[JamesSuperBoy]

Well...Hi.
I'm not the type of person who would write in a forum, because I think it's too direct, and that it what I try not to do when I'm doing the only thing that I good at - Making film and music. I try to be as symbolic as I can and make the viewer/listener to figure out the big questions and answers themselves. But in the past year I've been feeling like that urge to create is gone. Sometimes I try to keep my feet on the boat and write anther script, but it goes away in a second.
The thing is - I do want to keep doing what I like (If I really still like it, and if not, then what do I like? It was the only thing that I cared about. If I don't like making films - then I like nothing). It's not like I'm getting frustrated because the films are bad (sorry for being a prick for a sec), I know that people like the things I do. But for some reason, I don't seem to enjoy the craft that I'm the most interested by and feel the most comfortable and fluent with its language. I haven't wrote a single new script since October, but - I have so many great ideas. I haven't written OR EVEN PLAYED my piano for a few months now, and if I get the motivation to look at it for a second and try, the keyboard seem so foreign to me. Things that made sense - don't.
Everything is like that. It's like that part of the brain that used to be me is shutting down. I don't feel like I'm different anymore from other people, but I also don't feel like I'm 'mainstream'. I don't feel like anything. I feel like a robot with no task.

This was just one thing that I feel is wrong with me.
Thank you for reading thing.
If you have any ideas of what's happening with me, or you have felt it and have some advise -- please. Anything is appreciated.
Ok...Now it's too long for anybody to care, so I better go. Bye!

My first thing is that this has been your feeling for a year my second is that this is your first post so it is not easy to try and think through an answer. I mean - where members have a few posts it is for me anyways a look over thier past posts to then make an answer,
BUt we all start somewhere and yes I am happy you have asked here. I get the feeling you put a lot into your works.

It is difficult to make a new start when we feel down but would you try and look for a new hobby or interest take time out and dont force things.

I dont know where you are but I do know this - You should try and find someone to ask about how you feel maybe a doctor - we know from time to time people get depressed and that might just be helped by a doc. It is hard to ask for help if you are down but try.