seriously I need to stop making threads but ugh, I feel like I'm so ugly and gross

[Magenta]

sometimes I look at my face and I just want to cringe and sob and scratch it off. I hate my bangs. I’ve had them since I was a little kid and they’re such a pain in the ass to style and keep at a decent length. but my forehead is so large and awful. a part of me wants to go out and buy a pair of those fashion frames because maybe glasses — even fake despite my normally good vision — would be a decent distraction from the awfulness that is my forehead just so I don’t have to wear bangs again and they do actually look good on me (from trying on my mother's as a joke)

except I know if people found out they’d be like “wow, you ableist hipster trash, you don’t know what it’s like to actually HAVE to wear glasses”. I mean, I wear coloured contacts and don’t get the same shit but nope, apparently if you wear fake glasses you’re disgusting and I’ve seen posts with people saying they’d rip them off of people’s faces and punch them for it

like why can’t I try something in hopes I’ll feel better about my appearance? I’m aware they’re a pain in the ass ‘cause I HAVE to wear sunglasses in the summer or my eyes hurt badly and I can’t see shit but I’ve always looked so much better :/ (hell, I wear sunglasses in the winter because of the glare off the snow on some days or else my eyes will be watering from strain)

but nope, I’m probably ableist, hipster trash anyways

I just... sorry for the rant and I didn't put this in the fashion section because I feel like, again, I'd just get attacked. fact is, I'm still super depressed over my appearance and it's like nothing fits right. bangs make me look like I'm 15 and so girly which just isn't me. no bangs, well, I mentioned that already. I already went through anorexia and while I'm learning to accept my body and its shape, my face is just... I don't like looking in the mirror and crying anymore

I've been bullied over how I look all my life and now I feel like I'm going to be bullied over the tiniest of cosmetic changes just because I do look better that way, even if it's not physically necessary

like wtf am I supposed to do?

[Uranus]

Jo, I'm so sorry you feel this way. I know the feeling, and it's awful. But I don't think you're "Hipster Trash". And you're not. You look very beautiful from what I've seen in your avatar/profile pic on the IM client I've messaged you on. And don't think I'm saying this just to make you happy, but because, you look very pretty. I know it will probably be difficult to accept that. Because I had to as well. But don't let others (Negative) opinions bring you down. They're simply...haters. Who cares what others say. They aren't you. And you shouldn't go around looking for ways to change who you are. (Which is not hipster trash). You are already amazing. And don't let anyone tell you otherwise. All you need to do, is accept that in yourself. Remember, we're always here for you whenever you are dealing with troubling issues. Don't forget that. :)

[RandAnonPers]

Why should others opinions matter? You are you. Nothing more, nothing less. People just not expect anymore from you than yourself- if that makes any sense.

The best thing would be to do is to look in the mirror every morning when you wake up, and tell yourself one thing you like about you.

Again, right before you go to bed, look into a mirror and tell yourself one thing you did that day that you were proud of.

Build your self esteem.

It doesn't matter what is on the outside, people should like you for what is on the inside- and more importantly- YOU should like YOU for what is in the inside.
Stay strong dear.

[WengMan3397]

Have you tried talking to a counselor? Sometimes we go through crazy stuff in our life and sorting things out can be really helpful. I went through stuff after my brother died and yea it helped a lot. When you feel good about yourself minor things don't matter as much.