It's happening again

[ChromeCrow]

I don't really care if no one reads this, or even cares, I just need to type it out somewhere. And thus it happens again, my sexuality identification issues. Now, I am an advocate LBGT rights supporter, so I know my stuff, which is what makes this so hard. In my life though, I've had crushes on too girls, both conveniently lesbians, but I don't identify as Bi, I identify as straight, because I've always preferred males. But, in my freshman year of high school, I got these crushes, but I dismissed them, as just a teenage need for love, and what not. The first was just looks, but the second, who is a really, really close friend of mine, it was more, her personality, god, and she smells like heaven. But, when the year ended, and I didn't have a class with her the next term, the feelings faded, so I dismissed them, but I still wanted to see her as often as possible, cause we are such good friends. I do wish I was Bi, but know I'm not, at least, I don't think I am. But then we just started a new term, and we have a class together, and I just always want to be with her. I could actually see myself with her. Emotionally, I feel an attraction. I feel like I could cuddle her, and kiss her, and I would enjoy it. ugh, but she knows I'm straight, and all the gays know I'm straight, and I just feel that if I told her at least the feelings of possibly being Bi, I would look like a, poser? idk. And I have the talent of acting on impulse, and destroying a friendship. She just got out of a relationship, and is madly in love with another girl, she's for over a year. and I just want to cuddle with her, and nuzzle my face into her hair, that smells so heavenly, and typing this is making me want to scream. So basically ya....

P.S. 2/5/15- she told me I'm 0.5 gay (none of this above stuff came up, it was more of just random)
2/6/15- gave her a joke "you are forever claimed as mine" ring, and put it on her chain. wonder if it will be there Monday. I hope

With the help, I have settled on a sexual orientation: Bi-romantic demi sexual, or Bi-romantic for short

Bi-romantic demi sexual def.- A person who is romantically attracter to two or more genders, but will only feel sexual attraction when a deep bond is formed between them and their partner.

Thanks Guys

[Babs]

but I don't identify as Bi, I identify as straight, because I've always preferred males.

You can be bi and have a gender preference.

[Luminous]

Teen Sexuality and Gender :arrow: Relationships and Dating

[Meh Guy]

You can be bi and have a gender preference.

This. Although from your details, it sounds like you're definitely bisexual, however, I do not know you personally so I can't say for sure.

[ChromeCrow]

This. Although from your details, it sounds like you're definitely bisexual, however, I do not know you personally so I can't say for sure.

I'm new and don't have enough "points" (idk what this means) to PM, but you can email me at [email protected]

[TheGentleHerbivore]

You need to get rid of any preconceived notions of who you should like.
Maybe that's why you said you prefer males, even though throughout that whole paragraph you actually seem to be more attracted to girls, from what I've gathered - correct me of I'm wrong.

You should try to just let yourself like who you like rather than dismissing them as non-legitimate feelings.

Once you do that it should become clear to you after a while whether you fancy one of both genders.

[DoodleSnap]

Don't feel pressured into feeling that you have to use a certain label for sexuality. For sake of ease, however, it would probably serve you best to describe yourself as bi with a preference for guys to other people though. Plenty of bi people will have a preference for one gender, ie, I prefer guys slightly over girls. Just make of it what you will, as everyone just has to find what term works best for them.