My cousin ODed and died early today

[rachel_ballet]

This afternoon while I was with my BF, my father called me from his work! I knew something was up, cause he never calls me from work to my cell phone!
I didn't answer, and he called again. I answered the second time. It was then that he told me my cousin Julie, who I had just seen at Christmas, and just talked to on the phone 4 days ago, had intentionally overdosed on pain pills and died!
This is really crazy! We were very close! She was only 16, a few years older than me! When we talked 4 days ago, she talked like things were going great! She had got her own car, and she had mentioned about driving up from Tennessee, where she lives to hang out with me in a couple of weeks!
She never gave me any reason to think that she would do this! I just can't understand why! If there was something wrong, I wish she would have talked to me or to someone!
Everyone is devastated and I'm a total mess! I think I'm gonna see my BF when he gets home from work and I'm gonna lay down and cry myself to sleep!
This is all too much to deal with!

[James Dean]

I'm very sorry for your loss Rachel. :(

You and your family are in my prayers.

[leahmae]

So very sorry for your loss..

[SethfromMI]

I am so sorry :(. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family

[Excalibur]

That's the way it is with a lot of people. It seems like they're doing fine but they're really hurting inside, but you just don't realize it. I lost my best friend to suicide, and he had told me how he was actually feeling, but when it wasn't just him and me, he acted completely normal like there was nothing wrong with him. I am sincerely sorry for you and your family having to go through this time of grief... I know how it feels. If there's anything I can do to help, please, let me know.

[amgb]

I am really sorry to hear that, Rachel. It must be something that hit you so hard and I know it's so confusing and upsetting. It's okay to feel the way you're feeling, I understand it's a lot to deal with. I Hope you and your family have been doing okay...loss is a terrible and awful thing to deal with. Although we don't know each other, if you ever need to talk I'm here~

[Uranus]

I'm so sorry. That's devastating! My prayers go out to you and her family. I hope she had a good life. And I hope she's in a better place now.

[suzzysmith2012]

Sorry to hear that, especially to those circumstances, be strong.☺

[rachel_ballet]

Thank you all for the kind words!
The funeral was on Monday! Her friends came but they acted weird as if there was something they didn't want the family to know! Just my thought! Nothing will bring her back!
Life goes on I guess! My parents, and I are back home now!

[Isabella_]

so sorry for your loss
I hope you and your family find peace soon