Unknwn
February 6th, 2015, 12:19 PM
Last Saturday began like any other Saturday. I woke up, had breakfast, and was planning on just having a regular day. My parents and I went out to some stores, get a haircut, just stuff like that, and everything seemed to be going just like any other day. When we got back, my dad left for work because he works in the evening. It was just my mom, my little brother, and me at home. Again, just like any other day. So a bit after my dad left, my mom told me that she was going to go out to the store. I didn't think much of it because she sometimes does that. Hours passed, I was still at home with my brother, and she still didn't come back. I called her, she picked up and her voice sounded a bit different. When I was talking to her, I didn't know if she was drunk, if she was crying, or if she was just shivering from the cold, since a blizzard was suppose to happen during the night and all through Sunday. She told me she would be back in 5-10 minutes. Another hour passed she still didn't come home.
It was night already, so I got my brother and myself ready to go to bed. As we were getting ready to sleep, my dad come home like always and realized my mom wasn't home. He immediately stopped what he was doing and called her. Hearing what he was saying, I could tell that my mom was trying to lie and say that she was home, but my dad told her that he was already home and didn't see her. He went outside and found my mom walking back home. They began arguing. When my mom got back inside I saw that she was drunk. My dad looked frustrated. They continued arguing and that's when I tried to calm down the situation. My dad then asked my mom for her phone. She told him no, but he grabbed it anyway. Like two kids fighting for a toy, my mom and dad both tried to grab back the phone and I also just tried to get it away from them both. Eventually, my dad took it and went outside. My mom was now crying, and I asked her what was going on. She told me that for the past month, almost a year, she had been "seeing someone". She told me that my dad had discovered some texts in her phone and ever since then, he has tried to be a bit more protective.
I don't want to go into much detail, but basically my mom said that she just didn't feel the same about my dad. She also told me though, that even though my dad had figured something out, that they tried to keep it all a secret so that it wouldn't affect me and my brother. Up to this point, I had no idea that any of this was going on. My dad came back inside, there was an awkward silence between us three, then my dad grabbed his phone and, I think, he began calling his sister--my aunt.
After this, I just didn't know what to think. I am their oldest kid, so I've experience arguments between my parents that were similar, but even arguments like these are very rare. I always kinda knew that we weren't the "happiest" family, but I never knew or could even think that my mom would be seeing someone else. I am 18, so I guess I am old enough to handle something like this, but I don't know if I am strong enough. If my parents were to split up, I fear that my mom would really have nothing. She does not have a car, she doesn't have any family members here. The closest she has to a real family is me and my brother. She really doesn't have much except a job that is stressful and doesn't necessarily pay that well.
The day after this happened, there were still some awkward moments, but we just kinda went along with our day and now, almost a week later, this have kinda gone back to "normal". However, I can't really look at my mom or dad in the eyes anymore, and when I am alone, I just can't help but think about what would happen in the future. I kinda just wish that none of this ever happened, that it was all just a dream or something. I don't really want to talk about it with my parents just because I don't want to go back to the event or think about what may happen in the future. In a way, I also kinda just think that I should let my mom and dad figure this out for themselves.
I don't really know why I decided to write this. I'm not really sure if I am looking for guidance, advice, words of encouragement, or something else. I guess really what I wanted was just to get my thoughts out in words.
It was night already, so I got my brother and myself ready to go to bed. As we were getting ready to sleep, my dad come home like always and realized my mom wasn't home. He immediately stopped what he was doing and called her. Hearing what he was saying, I could tell that my mom was trying to lie and say that she was home, but my dad told her that he was already home and didn't see her. He went outside and found my mom walking back home. They began arguing. When my mom got back inside I saw that she was drunk. My dad looked frustrated. They continued arguing and that's when I tried to calm down the situation. My dad then asked my mom for her phone. She told him no, but he grabbed it anyway. Like two kids fighting for a toy, my mom and dad both tried to grab back the phone and I also just tried to get it away from them both. Eventually, my dad took it and went outside. My mom was now crying, and I asked her what was going on. She told me that for the past month, almost a year, she had been "seeing someone". She told me that my dad had discovered some texts in her phone and ever since then, he has tried to be a bit more protective.
I don't want to go into much detail, but basically my mom said that she just didn't feel the same about my dad. She also told me though, that even though my dad had figured something out, that they tried to keep it all a secret so that it wouldn't affect me and my brother. Up to this point, I had no idea that any of this was going on. My dad came back inside, there was an awkward silence between us three, then my dad grabbed his phone and, I think, he began calling his sister--my aunt.
After this, I just didn't know what to think. I am their oldest kid, so I've experience arguments between my parents that were similar, but even arguments like these are very rare. I always kinda knew that we weren't the "happiest" family, but I never knew or could even think that my mom would be seeing someone else. I am 18, so I guess I am old enough to handle something like this, but I don't know if I am strong enough. If my parents were to split up, I fear that my mom would really have nothing. She does not have a car, she doesn't have any family members here. The closest she has to a real family is me and my brother. She really doesn't have much except a job that is stressful and doesn't necessarily pay that well.
The day after this happened, there were still some awkward moments, but we just kinda went along with our day and now, almost a week later, this have kinda gone back to "normal". However, I can't really look at my mom or dad in the eyes anymore, and when I am alone, I just can't help but think about what would happen in the future. I kinda just wish that none of this ever happened, that it was all just a dream or something. I don't really want to talk about it with my parents just because I don't want to go back to the event or think about what may happen in the future. In a way, I also kinda just think that I should let my mom and dad figure this out for themselves.
I don't really know why I decided to write this. I'm not really sure if I am looking for guidance, advice, words of encouragement, or something else. I guess really what I wanted was just to get my thoughts out in words.