Lovelife090994
February 2nd, 2015, 02:43 AM
I can't believe I'm doing. Goddess help me.
I have multiple personalities, there I said it. I always have. The one most of you see on here as me is my self which bears my name, Christopher, but the other sides are complicated. I have a weird way of coping with my reality and ways. I have a dark alternative self and a feminine self. The dark side comes out a lot, he's Drake... He cares about nothing, hates everyone, is bigoted to everything, and wants to stay sad, he believes in no happiness, and cones out when we are scared, shy, lost, alone.
The second is me, Missy but I have no name. I'm the first of me and feminine. I am shy but more random and less constrained. I am the one typing all of this. I'm more open but also am more aware of things. I existed at the beginning but from lack of love I spawned Christopher... The one you all know here as Lovelife090994
I know this makes me sound crazy and you'll all want to unfriendly criticise me or chastise me but know that after twenty years of inner-conflict I, Missy am speaking up for the person who could not. I am the same "me" but our psyche is split in three. Love and acceptance are all we wish so maybe that will unite me as whole. Missy was a girl trapped in a boy's body and Christopher was the confusion and shyness, Drake is how we cope with depression and anger, and back to me, I am very pubic but just like Christopher.
I realize now this is proof I need help... But unlike on other sites if I say this to those I know then I will surely lose it all. I can't bear more pain of loss on massive scale... A part of me ready feels dead inside, please don't make it hurt worse.
It's bad enough being broken, it's worse trying to get people to understand those three shards are all you.
I have multiple personalities, there I said it. I always have. The one most of you see on here as me is my self which bears my name, Christopher, but the other sides are complicated. I have a weird way of coping with my reality and ways. I have a dark alternative self and a feminine self. The dark side comes out a lot, he's Drake... He cares about nothing, hates everyone, is bigoted to everything, and wants to stay sad, he believes in no happiness, and cones out when we are scared, shy, lost, alone.
The second is me, Missy but I have no name. I'm the first of me and feminine. I am shy but more random and less constrained. I am the one typing all of this. I'm more open but also am more aware of things. I existed at the beginning but from lack of love I spawned Christopher... The one you all know here as Lovelife090994
I know this makes me sound crazy and you'll all want to unfriendly criticise me or chastise me but know that after twenty years of inner-conflict I, Missy am speaking up for the person who could not. I am the same "me" but our psyche is split in three. Love and acceptance are all we wish so maybe that will unite me as whole. Missy was a girl trapped in a boy's body and Christopher was the confusion and shyness, Drake is how we cope with depression and anger, and back to me, I am very pubic but just like Christopher.
I realize now this is proof I need help... But unlike on other sites if I say this to those I know then I will surely lose it all. I can't bear more pain of loss on massive scale... A part of me ready feels dead inside, please don't make it hurt worse.
It's bad enough being broken, it's worse trying to get people to understand those three shards are all you.