She read something that she was never supposed too...

[onewingedangel666]

On new years eve, I wrote 2 messages to the girl I have fallen for. One was just a stupid little hppy new years deal, and it got sent right away. the other wlong, heartfelt message that told about my plans to ask to leave the US with her when she leaves after high school, and alot more. I never sent that one, but saved it in my drafts.
Yesterday i got a message from here that was a reply to the message I never sent. Someone got into my E-mail and sent it. She said this
I'm sorry this was sent. I know it wasn't meant to be sent. But I hope you're not too upset it was.. But I'm sorry. I'm really sorry for everything that has happened. I used to always be upset that we had met. Not for myself, but for you. I know I am nothing special, and for you to see something in me that nobody else can, and for me to not feel the same way back.. I'm sorry. I don't deserve to hear such things from anyone, whether they were meant to be said or not. I'm sorry I can't be there for you. I'm sorry the person you claim to think of most, doesn't think of you the same. I honestly wish it could work out. But I don't know you well, and I don't see myself getting involved with someone through a message system... If this was written awhile ago and your feelings have changed.. Well that would be awkward a little but I'm still sorry. But guessing on some of the message content, it wasn't (?). I had originally planned to leave (for Asia) alone. I can't say that this won't change, but I wouldn't mind if you were there. I actually have developed plans now... Well anyways, I just want to say sorry. For everything.

Well... I don't know what to think... Like wow- She feels bad for me? She's sorry? She has nothing to apologize for... Yet she does...
Can someone explain this to me? I know it sounds stupid, but what would you take from this message? Thanks in advance, everyone.

[Foamy]

To sum that up in one sentence: You fell hard for a girl who doesn't feel the same.
And to explain why she's sorry: She probably feels as if she led you on, made it seem like she had feelings for you that were stronger than they actually were.

From the message it seems like you two have never met... So if that IS the case then (at least to me) you two probably would not have lasted very long anyway. But when one person in a relationship (or in this case the earliest stage of one) says that they do not think it would work out, then that means that there is little chance of anything happening. (That happened to me about two weeks ago so I'm in a similar boat) My advice to you is to start to move on. Its gonna take time, and hurt quite a bit, but its something that you need to do. Don't keep yourself afloat on the hope that something can happen. When someone says that it probably won't work out that means it should not happen. I'm sorry it didn't work out, but keep your chin up. You'll find someone that feels for you the same. You've got a long time to do that.
^.^

[maniamsmart]

Auron!! (Ok, I don't know why I have to shout that everytime I see you on the forums here xD)

I feel you man though, I feel you so much. I've had this message sent to me too, well somewhat of the sort. And it's basically her feeling bad for you. That's really it. She sees that you really love her, and she sees that you would love to be with her, but she doesn't feel the same way in return. She is apologizing for that, for not feeling the same way you feel and for potentially hurting you, if you are hurt, because I guess she's assuming you are hurt. She really is putting herself down a lot in this message, and it seems to be that she wishes she could have some feelings for you, the way you have feelings for her, but she just doesn't and see that you have all these feelings of love for her, and just wishes she could feel the same.

What does confuse me however, is that that last bit. She says all these things about not wanting to be with you, because she doesn't have the same feelings, because she isn't ready for the relationship, because she feels like she'll hurt you even more, and what not, but then she says that she wouldn't mind you being there with her in Asia. Now why would she say that? I don't know about you, but it kinda seems like either one, she still has a small amount of feelings for you, or two, she is trying to create some feelings to either sympathize with you and she that she still cares about you even though she doesn't. Not sure though about that last bit.

[onewingedangel666]

We do know each other, not amazingly well, but if we talked more (different friend circles) we'd probably be really good friends.

She does that a lot, the whole ending the message giving me the idea that she does feel something but.... I've learned to ignore it a bit haha. She's really casual about this, actually (exactly after this message she asked me if I had seen an anime she told me about yet hah).... But I guess that whole last part is one of the reasons I posted this.

(Oh btw about Auron, It's cause he rocks lol)

Also, what did she mean she can't say won't change? the not minding me, or the going alone part? (Does that make sense in writing lol?)

[maniamsmart]

We do know each other, not amazingly well, but if we talked more (different friend circles) we'd probably be really good friends.

She does that a lot, the whole ending the message giving me the idea that she does feel something but.... I've learned to ignore it a bit haha. She's really casual about this, actually (exactly after this message she asked me if I had seen an anime she told me about yet hah).... But I guess that whole last part is one of the reasons I posted this.

(Oh btw about Auron, It's cause he rocks lol)

Also, what did she mean she can't say won't change? the not minding me, or the going alone part? (Does that make sense in writing lol?)

I'll analyze the message a bit more when I come home, I am heading out to the bus stop right now to head home from school. Until my next post then, Sir Auron :P

Edit: Bleh, in the morning, I am really tired :P

[onewingedangel666]

I'll analyze the message a bit more when I come home, I am heading out to the bus stop right now to head home from school. Until my next post then, Sir Auron :P

Edit: Bleh, in the morning, I am really tired :P

Do you make those pics in your signature? think I could get one haha?

[maniamsmart]

onewingedangel666

Okay, I am ready to respond. I read the message from her again, and I really am not 100% sure on what she wants. She seems confused on whether to have guilt for you, feel bad, and potential think of being with you again, and/or moving on.

Also yes, I created my signature. I could make you one as well but private message me.

[onewingedangel666]

I need 100 posts to PM XD sorry. maybe one day haha.

ANyway.... I'm hopefully just gonna try and keep on the down low with her. Give her some time, let her current relationship fall through (Probably inevitable), and just be a friend.

[maniamsmart]

I need 100 posts to PM XD sorry. maybe one day haha.

ANyway.... I'm hopefully just gonna try and keep on the down low with her. Give her some time, let her current relationship fall through (Probably inevitable), and just be a friend.

Sounds like a good idea, if you can't PM, then write on my profile page, I think you can leave visitor messages.

[Body odah Man]

I agree with the other 2. Sorry man :(