A Question That Has Been Bugging Me.

[Tendencies]

So I know that a lot of other people in the world have it a lot worse than I do, and by social standards I would say that my life is alright and I have a house and other things that I should be thankful that I have and I am thankful for those things, but the thing is, i'm not really that happy when I look at life as a whole. I think it is mainly because I crave things that can be hard to get such as a relationship and things of that sort. As for the question, it has been going through my mind ever since coming back to school after break. I see everyone being happy and stuff and then I am just there. I've just been wondering why they get to be happy and I don't. Did I do something that may have caused me to go through life not being able to be happy? I don't really get it, and I know that I probably sound like an overemotional kid that should really just get over himself and be happy with what I have, and I understand that, and i'm truly sorry if i sound like an arrogant and ungrateful person, I really don't want to come off as that but I just really would like to know. If someone actually takes the time to read this whole thing it would be much appreciated because this really looks like a long post and I probably put way more information and description into this than I should have and I am very sorry admins if I did.

[Elysium]

Nothing to be sorry for :P

From experience, here's my answer to that question (which I also spent quite a while asking myself): they're not. Like you say, you have a seemingly content life, but you're still unhappy, right? That's how it is for the majority if not everyone, especially at this age. Everyone has their own set of problems, regardless of their circumstances. You probably look happy to the people around you, too. I know I feel unhappy and yet I've received many comments about how happy a person I am and how often I smile. Striving to be as happy as others appear hasn't really gotten me anywhere; it only made me unhappier when I failed. It'll do you a world of good to focus on yourself and not others, because chances are, you're only seeing a fraction of who those people are, the same thing they see of you.

[Excalibur]

Well, I'm going to go ahead and say what Elysium and Sean already said; You're not alone. I'm kind of feeling like that right now, to be honest, like there's just something off about everything that I do and everything that I am, it's like this undefinable funk that you just can't shake and is always clouding up your life. But just remember, you're awesome. No matter what people say or what they think, everything about you is perfect. I don't know what religion you are or what you believe or who you believe in, but just know that you were made the way you are. Don't force any changes, or try to hide anything, or try to change. Find someone you can trust, talk to them on a regular basis, they can help. And also, I know this might sound cheesy but, try smiling more often. Whenever you're feeling depressed or alone, or whenever really, just force a smile. It's been scientifically proven that just the action of smiling, fake or not, makes you happier. Anyway, I hope this helps somewhat. And if it didn't, I sincerely apologize, and you can forget about this post and go about your day. But, if it did help even a little, just try taking some of the advice. I don't want to make you feel forced to do anything, but maybe try it. Anyway, I genuinely hope you have a great day. Thanks for taking the time to read this. ^_^