The3rdArmy
January 2nd, 2015, 02:17 AM
I've been inactive for a long time but I guess now is the best time to reactivate my account.
So there's this girl I've known since around 1st Grade. Up until now, we never really talked, probably because we didn't notice each other much. It all changed in the Summer before my 8th grade year. I started having small feelings for her, the normal "oh she's cute but I'll get over it" feeling. It grew a bit but I didn't let it grow any more cause I was scared she would be disgusted with me (I'm Asian, not exactly the most attractive race). Then in 8th grade year, I asked her what our assignments were and somehow I ended up finding out she liked me and decided to tell her I like her too. I suppose we were both happy in our own way, me because I've only really "liked" two other girls in the past and I was rejected pretty badly.
A few days later, I decided to grow a penis and ask her to my school dance. As you can guess, she said yes but had to ask her parents for permission. I understood what she meant and I guess I just let it flow or something. Meanwhile in school we rarely said a word to each other, mostly cause of awkward situation.
Two weeks passed, and my "like" for her quickly grew into a crush, probably the first real one I've had. I know I said I've liked two other girls before but never had a crush on them. But that two week period also marked the start of the Rejection. She told me she wanted to turn down my invitation to the dance since she was afraid her parents would think she was doing other stuff. I understood where she was coming from and told her it was fine. But that night I cried a little bit to sleep. I know I'm a guy and all, but I'm one of the more sensitive ones.
I enlisted the help of my cousin up north, in hopes he could convince my crush to let me take her to the dance and let me ask her parents themselves. It didn't really work out but we ended our texts on a neutral note, admitting to each other we couldn't stand seeing each other that way.
My next mistake happened around our Thanksgiving Break. I guess I inhaled too much vodka and tequila fumes and got a little woozy. Our little "romance" got a little sour after the incident mentioned earlier. I don't remember much, but I do remember getting really pushy and controlling cause I wanted to tell her a secret which was that I had a crush on her (before she only knew I liked her). It failed miserably and it ended up with the two of us unfollowing each other on Instagram (I have an iPod and she doesn't have Kik) and me temporarily blocking her.
I guess that was the final straw for her.
From then on, if I talked to her she would only respond in a few words and not look me in the eye (we had gotten to the point of face to face conversations). I felt really heartbroken at this, and soon all I would do after school and during weekends was lie in my bed crying softly while listening to Nightcore and the occasional Coming Home by Diddy and Dirty Money.
On the day before our Christmas Break, we finally talked to each other face to face in a group conversation, but it was mostly sarcasm and minor acknowledgement towards me.
I'm tearing up just writing this, cause I have such a huge crush on her. But I don't know if she's rejected me or just thinking about. A little help?
So there's this girl I've known since around 1st Grade. Up until now, we never really talked, probably because we didn't notice each other much. It all changed in the Summer before my 8th grade year. I started having small feelings for her, the normal "oh she's cute but I'll get over it" feeling. It grew a bit but I didn't let it grow any more cause I was scared she would be disgusted with me (I'm Asian, not exactly the most attractive race). Then in 8th grade year, I asked her what our assignments were and somehow I ended up finding out she liked me and decided to tell her I like her too. I suppose we were both happy in our own way, me because I've only really "liked" two other girls in the past and I was rejected pretty badly.
A few days later, I decided to grow a penis and ask her to my school dance. As you can guess, she said yes but had to ask her parents for permission. I understood what she meant and I guess I just let it flow or something. Meanwhile in school we rarely said a word to each other, mostly cause of awkward situation.
Two weeks passed, and my "like" for her quickly grew into a crush, probably the first real one I've had. I know I said I've liked two other girls before but never had a crush on them. But that two week period also marked the start of the Rejection. She told me she wanted to turn down my invitation to the dance since she was afraid her parents would think she was doing other stuff. I understood where she was coming from and told her it was fine. But that night I cried a little bit to sleep. I know I'm a guy and all, but I'm one of the more sensitive ones.
I enlisted the help of my cousin up north, in hopes he could convince my crush to let me take her to the dance and let me ask her parents themselves. It didn't really work out but we ended our texts on a neutral note, admitting to each other we couldn't stand seeing each other that way.
My next mistake happened around our Thanksgiving Break. I guess I inhaled too much vodka and tequila fumes and got a little woozy. Our little "romance" got a little sour after the incident mentioned earlier. I don't remember much, but I do remember getting really pushy and controlling cause I wanted to tell her a secret which was that I had a crush on her (before she only knew I liked her). It failed miserably and it ended up with the two of us unfollowing each other on Instagram (I have an iPod and she doesn't have Kik) and me temporarily blocking her.
I guess that was the final straw for her.
From then on, if I talked to her she would only respond in a few words and not look me in the eye (we had gotten to the point of face to face conversations). I felt really heartbroken at this, and soon all I would do after school and during weekends was lie in my bed crying softly while listening to Nightcore and the occasional Coming Home by Diddy and Dirty Money.
On the day before our Christmas Break, we finally talked to each other face to face in a group conversation, but it was mostly sarcasm and minor acknowledgement towards me.
I'm tearing up just writing this, cause I have such a huge crush on her. But I don't know if she's rejected me or just thinking about. A little help?