I can't do this anymore

[Karkat]

This may be the last time I'm logging on

I don't know if I've told all of you but Charlie dumped me
I'm not taking it so well
I tried to slit my wrists nearly three weeks ago because of it
Even though I have a new boyfriend (entirely out of emotional irrationality) I can't cope
I love Charlie so much
I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know what to do. I can't take it anymore. I can't do this.
I told Charlie that I hate him, and to never contact me again
I want to kill myself. I see no other answer right now.

So while I'm not saying anything for sure
I just needed to put this out there
I'm screaming inside
I'm so sorry guys, it's been so lovely to be a part of VT and get to know you all

[cami]

calm down, suicide's not a solution. are you going to throw your life through the window just because of ONE guy? I don't care how important he is, just think that you will miss lots of beautiful things if you kill yourself. your whole family will be pretty sad because of that, and probably Charlie will to.

Don't let others destroy your life and your dreams for the future.

My grandma says time can heal any wound, and i'm sure it will heal yours too!

[Tony_777]

Yes Ren.
I'm sorry to tell you this, but don't be stupid. The end of the world hans't come yet. You are to young and is just stupid if you decide to do such a thing.
If you die, that's it, no more chances
But if you decide to keep on going, then you will turn out to learn more about the world and become a better you.
Hold on and keep walking.

This guy, no legs, no arms, and he smiles all the time, look the following videos, and you will see.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WgAKZSTVEs4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKTg_INHgpc

How can he make it, because he choosed to keep going.

[Karkat]

calm down, suicide's not a solution. are you going to throw your life through the window just because of ONE guy? I don't care how important he is, just think that you will miss lots of beautiful things if you kill yourself. your whole family will be pretty sad because of that, and probably Charlie will to.

Don't let others destroy your life and your dreams for the future.

My grandma says time can heal any wound, and i'm sure it will heal yours too!

Yes Ren.
I'm sorry to tell you this, but don't be stupid. The end of the world hans't come yet. You are to young and is just stupid if you decide to do such a thing.
If you die, that's it, no more chances
But if you decide to keep on going, then you will turn out to learn more about the world and become a better you.
Hold on and keep walking.

This guy, no legs, no arms, and he smiles all the time, look the following videos, and you will see.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WgAKZSTVEs4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKTg_INHgpc

How can he make it, because he choosed to keep going.

Thanks for your responses guys. Just want to let you know that I'm still ok. I struggle with severe mental illness, sometimes it gets the better of me. Last night was kinda one of those nights.

Thanks for your care and concern. It means a lot :)

[Dying Ember]

I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. But please please please reach out to someone for help. I promise you there someone out there to help you, sometimes the most unlikely person. I know there's not much I can say to help, but I'm here if you need someone to speak to.
*hugs*

[Horatio Nelson]

I'm feeling a bit too drained to write something long and thought out, but, you can get through it Ren, it may seem like the end, but it's not.

[Karkat]

I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. But please please please reach out to someone for help. I promise you there someone out there to help you, sometimes the most unlikely person. I know there's not much I can say to help, but I'm here if you need someone to speak to.
*hugs*

I don't know if I can reach out to someone right now, but I do know that I'll be safe for a while. Don't worry about me too much. Thank you :)

I'm feeling a bit too drained to write something long and thought out, but, you can get through it Ren, it may seem like the end, but it's not.

I'm trying the best I can. Thanks hun *hug*

[Horatio Nelson]

I'm trying the best I can. Thanks hun *hug*

You know I'm always here to talk. :)

[CosmicNoodle]

You and Charlie may be on bad terms, and mad with each other, but at the end of the days it's best to just drop it and say sorry and make up, I'd recommend trying that.

[Karkat]

You know I'm always here to talk. :)

Thanks :) I'll remember that

You and Charlie may be on bad terms, and mad with each other, but at the end of the days it's best to just drop it and say sorry and make up, I'd recommend trying that.

Weird thing is, we aren't mad at each other. I wasn't even TRULY mad at him at all, I was trying to cover up how deep in anguish I was, and how scared and confused I was.

We have made up, more or less, I think

I still feel so terrible though

[CosmicNoodle]

Weird thing is, we aren't mad at each other. I wasn't even TRULY mad at him at all, I was trying to cover up how deep in anguish I was, and how scared and confused I was.

We have made up, more or less, I think

I still feel so terrible though

I know what that's like, someone fucks you up, then you make up, but it's not quite the same any more, right? (or am I talking shit again?)
There's a difference between making up and actually being cool with each other and trusting again.

[Karkat]

I know what that's like, someone fucks you up, then you make up, but it's not quite the same any more, right? (or am I talking shit again?)
There's a difference between making up and actually being cool with each other and trusting again.

Yeah no, you're spot on

It's probably gonna take him a long time to trust me again, which sucks

And I just don't know how to feel in general...

[CosmicNoodle]

Yeah no, you're spot on

It's probably gonna take him a long time to trust me again, which sucks

And I just don't know how to feel in general...

Thought so, exactly the same thing happened to me, but with me, they decided to cut off all contact with me and basically rip my heart out, one second it was all unicorns and flowers, next thing I know they ripped a part out of my very soul. I know what it's like (stop making this about yourself, Joe)

The best thing you can do, in my fairly inexperienced opinion, is to just say sorry, explain yourself, and then just give them time to come round, if they do at all. I'm sure he'll come to trust you in time, after all, he broke up with you.

At the end of the day,. one of you was obviously unhappy, something wasn't working, it's better this way, this way you both have the opportunity to be happy. Sometimes just being friends is what's best for a relationship

(don't trust what I say, I tend to end up with fuck buddys instead of partners, I'm no expert)

[Karkat]

Thought so, exactly the same thing happened to me, but with me, they decided to cut off all contact with me and basically rip my heart out, one second it was all unicorns and flowers, next thing I know they ripped a part out of my very soul. I know what it's like (stop making this about yourself, Joe)

The best thing you can do, in my fairly inexperienced opinion, is to just say sorry, explain yourself, and then just give them time to come round, if they do at all. I'm sure he'll come to trust you in time, after all, he broke up with you.

At the end of the day,. one of you was obviously unhappy, something wasn't working, it's better this way, this way you both have the opportunity to be happy. Sometimes just being friends is what's best for a relationship

(don't trust what I say, I tend to end up with fuck buddys instead of partners, I'm no expert)

Actually, the reason he dumped me was because of my mental health (which sounds really awful, but he's only 18, and he's autistic as well, and it just got to be too much for him.) so while we could've worked out pretty well... It's just not opportune right now

But yeah, I hear ya

[mai-rin]

I don't really know you that well, but i'm always here if you need to talk.I suffer with several issues myself so I understand or at least try to.I'm going through a bad patch myself right now too, but I can listen.

[Karkat]

I don't really know you that well, but i'm always here if you need to talk.I suffer with several issues myself so I understand or at least try to.I'm going through a bad patch myself right now too, but I can listen.

Thank you, that means a lot :)

[SethfromMI]

it can be heart breaking to lose a relationship, but do not give up on life. it may not seem like it now, but things can get better

[Karkat]

it can be heart breaking to lose a relationship, but do not give up on life. it may not seem like it now, but things can get better

I hope so.

[SethfromMI]

I hope so.

trust me, they can

[Tony_777]

Thanks for your responses guys. Just want to let you know that I'm still ok. I struggle with severe mental illness, sometimes it gets the better of me. Last night was kinda one of those nights.

Thanks for your care and concern. It means a lot :)

Its good to hear that you feel better now.
One will always struggle with different things in life, you just need to be strong. I know it's hard but otherwise who will do it for us?

[Karkat]

trust me, they can

Alright :)

Its good to hear that you feel better now.
One will always struggle with different things in life, you just need to be strong. I know it's hard but otherwise who will do it for us?

That's true.

[Babs]

This may be the last time I'm logging on

I don't know if I've told all of you but Charlie dumped me
I'm not taking it so well
I tried to slit my wrists nearly three weeks ago because of it
Even though I have a new boyfriend (entirely out of emotional irrationality) I can't cope
I love Charlie so much
I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know what to do. I can't take it anymore. I can't do this.
I told Charlie that I hate him, and to never contact me again
I want to kill myself. I see no other answer right now.

So while I'm not saying anything for sure
I just needed to put this out there
I'm screaming inside
I'm so sorry guys, it's been so lovely to be a part of VT and get to know you all

I'm so sorry that you're going through this. Please don't kill yourself. You were the first to respond when I said that I wanted to commit suicide.
Something I've been trying to do is to not dwell on the things I can't change, or even accept them. I think that's something you should try to do. You can be sad, but eventually you have to move on. People come and go, and it's sad. And sometimes you can't get passed depression so easily, but please hang on. There are people that love you. VT loves you, and people in real life.
I'm a little late to reply, but I felt compelled to do so anyway.

[Karkat]

I'm so sorry that you're going through this. Please don't kill yourself. You were the first to respond when I said that I wanted to commit suicide.
Something I've been trying to do is to not dwell on the things I can't change, or even accept them. I think that's something you should try to do. You can be sad, but eventually you have to move on. People come and go, and it's sad. And sometimes you can't get passed depression so easily, but please hang on. There are people that love you. VT loves you, and people in real life.
I'm a little late to reply, but I felt compelled to do so anyway.

Thank you :) This brightened my day quite a bit

I'm trying. Slowly, but surely, I'm inching forward in life, and I'm still holding on somehow

[CosmicNoodle]

I know I'm a random chubby atheist, neck beard, billigersnt ass hole on the internet with a superiority complex and a bad temper. So my opinion might not mean anything. But I actually think your a really cool person, the sorry of person who makes life interesting, the sort of person that helps society move forward as a hole. It'd be a shame to see you come to any harm.

(I just noticed, I answered this before, but ohh well, I've typed it out now. )

[Karkat]

I know I'm a random chubby atheist, neck beard, billigersnt ass hole on the internet with a superiority complex and a bad temper. So my opinion might not mean anything. But I actually think your a really cool person, the sorry of person who makes life interesting, the sort of person that helps society move forward as a hole. It'd be a shame to see you come to any harm.

(I just noticed, I answered this before, but ohh well, I've typed it out now. )

Thanks :)

I'm starting to fare a little better, so I wouldn't worry about me too much for the time being

[TroyH]

This may be the last time I'm logging on

I don't know if I've told all of you but Charlie dumped me
I'm not taking it so well
I tried to slit my wrists nearly three weeks ago because of it
Even though I have a new boyfriend (entirely out of emotional irrationality) I can't cope
I love Charlie so much
I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know what to do. I can't take it anymore. I can't do this.
I told Charlie that I hate him, and to never contact me again
I want to kill myself. I see no other answer right now.

So while I'm not saying anything for sure
I just needed to put this out there
I'm screaming inside
I'm so sorry guys, it's been so lovely to be a part of VT and get to know you all

I haven't been around here that long but it's plain to see you're a very avid poster. You seem incredibly kind and also quite intelligent. I'd say you have a promising future ahead of you so I wouldn't go throwing it away over a guy, especially not so early in your life. Of course losing someone you really love sucks but I know you're strong enough to get through it and come out even stronger on the other side because of it. Chin up and look forwards towards the future where better fortunes lie.

[Karkat]

I haven't been around here that long but it's plain to see you're a very avid poster. You seem incredibly kind and also quite intelligent. I'd say you have a promising future ahead of you so I wouldn't go throwing it away over a guy, especially not so early in your life. Of course losing someone you really love sucks but I know you're strong enough to get through it and come out even stronger on the other side because of it. Chin up and look forwards towards the future where better fortunes lie.

Thank you :)

[Tony_777]

Alright :)

That's true.

Oh well.

You know what to do next right? We moving forward. :)

[Karkat]

Oh well.

You know what to do next right? We moving forward. :)

Hah, I'm sure trying to, anyways

[amgb]

Hi Ren : ) You must feel horrible about Charlie :/ I can't say that I understand what you've been through because I've never been in a relationship, but I can relate to some of your feelings. I just want you to know that you are a good person and I really hope you believe you are. Maybe try have a talk to Charlie if you're feeling up to it? Like a really in depth talk, but if you're not comfortable or if you reckon Charlie wouldn't like that then that's okay as well. Hope things are getting better for you..even if it's just something small that's positive, it's worth something. You're worth something, I know you don't believe that but I'm hoping you will someday~

[Karkat]

Hi Ren : ) You must feel horrible about Charlie :/ I can't say that I understand what you've been through because I've never been in a relationship, but I can relate to some of your feelings. I just want you to know that you are a good person and I really hope you believe you are. Maybe try have a talk to Charlie if you're feeling up to it? Like a really in depth talk, but if you're not comfortable or if you reckon Charlie wouldn't like that then that's okay as well. Hope things are getting better for you..even if it's just something small that's positive, it's worth something. You're worth something, I know you don't believe that but I'm hoping you will someday~

Thank you :)

[Tony_777]

Hah, I'm sure trying to, anyways

Good then
So, how are you feeling today?

[Karkat]

Good then
So, how are you feeling today?

Pretty good :) Thanks

[Tony_777]

Pretty good :) Thanks

I'm glad to hear that.
Just remember that problems will always be around the corner. You just need to learn to live with them and to grow up out of them. You know what I mean.

[Karkat]

I'm glad to hear that.
Just remember that problems will always be around the corner. You just need to learn to live with them and to grow up out of them. You know what I mean.

Yeah

[Tony_777]

Yeah

Greaaat then. :)

Keep it up.

[Karkat]

Greaaat then. :)

Keep it up.

Alright :) Will do