Christmas is the worst :(

[Whight]

I know it's an unpopular opinion and all. But Christmas is really the worst time of the year and I hate when it comes around.
I'm most depressed during it and I get to the edge as far as suicidal thoughts go.
Thankfully I didn't try anything this year thanks to constant calls from my boyfriend to check in on me. Literally sends me a msg every minute and calls once an hour. I never thought i'd get tired to hear his voice, but if I don't answer he'll freak out :S.

It's just... Such a difficult holiday. Is anyone else here having a hard time through it? I could use some understanding company to talk to.

[Karkat]

Apparently the winter months are some of the highest for depression and suicide, so that doesn't surprise me.

I personally have a terrible time with the winter months. If I wasn't on a mood stabilizer and an antidepressant right now, I might not be here.

[Whight]

Actually, I really like the winter. So it slightly balances things. There's something about the winter that is really soothing for me, the sound of the rain, the snuggling under a warm blanket, seeing snow.
What I like even more is walking outside when it's raining, because then the streets tend to be rather empty and everything is gray and dark. I really enjoy it.

It's only Christmas itself i'm struggling with. Everyone is with their families, "gone for the holiday" and i'm all alone by myself. Everyone's exchanging gifts and having a blast while i'm trying to surprise myself with a gift I bought from a store and asked them to gift wrap it for me.

[Karkat]

Actually, I really like the winter. So it slightly balances things. There's something about the winter that is really soothing for me, the sound of the rain, the snuggling under a warm blanket, seeing snow.
What I like even more is walking outside when it's raining, because then the streets tend to be rather empty and everything is gray and dark. I really enjoy it.

It's only Christmas itself i'm struggling with. Everyone is with their families, "gone for the holiday" and i'm all alone by myself. Everyone's exchanging gifts and having a blast while i'm trying to surprise myself with a gift I bought from a store and asked them to gift wrap it for me.

HAH I feel you there. So much. I spent Christmas alone, sick, watching Vinesauce videos and being hungry because I couldn't get up to make myself something. I can empathize with Christmas being a pitiful day...

[SethfromMI]

being alone on Christmas is no fun,I am sorry you had/have to experience that

[Thunderstorm]

Actually, I really like the winter. So it slightly balances things. There's something about the winter that is really soothing for me, the sound of the rain, the snuggling under a warm blanket, seeing snow.
What I like even more is walking outside when it's raining, because then the streets tend to be rather empty and everything is gray and dark. I really enjoy it.

It's only Christmas itself i'm struggling with. Everyone is with their families, "gone for the holiday" and i'm all alone by myself. Everyone's exchanging gifts and having a blast while i'm trying to surprise myself with a gift I bought from a store and asked them to gift wrap it for me.

It's not an easy time of year, and it's even worse when you don't celebrate Christmas because everyone else is doing fun things and you're sitting there on what everyone makes out to be the best holiday of the year.
Anyways, I feel ya. Sometimes I get tired of my boyfriend's voice but he always makes sure I'm ok, which I admire. just realize, someone loves you and as much as you need them, they need you. Feel better :)

[Whight]

HAH I feel you there. So much. I spent Christmas alone, sick, watching Vinesauce videos and being hungry because I couldn't get up to make myself something. I can empathize with Christmas being a pitiful day...

Actually, it's sorta my favorite thing to do on Christmas. Binge watch stuff. I just get cozy up in bed with a bunch of snacks and drinks.
On Thursday, I was pretty much in bed for 12 hours straight hehe. Watched a whole season of Parks and Recs.

It's not an easy time of year, and it's even worse when you don't celebrate Christmas because everyone else is doing fun things and you're sitting there on what everyone makes out to be the best holiday of the year.
Anyways, I feel ya. Sometimes I get tired of my boyfriend's voice but he always makes sure I'm ok, which I admire. just realize, someone loves you and as much as you need them, they need you. Feel better :)

Well, it's the first time I got tired of his voice if i'm honest. But now that i've been off it for a few hours, I kinda miss it :). Let's just say that if it wasn't for his phone calls, i'd probably have a repeat of last years' Christmas. Spoiler alert, was in the hospital.

[Karkat]

Actually, it's sorta my favorite thing to do on Christmas. Binge watch stuff. I just get cozy up in bed with a bunch of snacks and drinks.
On Thursday, I was pretty much in bed for 12 hours straight hehe. Watched a whole season of Parks and Recs.



Well, it's the first time I got tired of his voice if i'm honest. But now that i've been off it for a few hours, I kinda miss it :). Let's just say that if it wasn't for his phone calls, i'd probably have a repeat of last years' Christmas. Spoiler alert, was in the hospital.

Eh, it wasn't so much that I minded as being alone for the umpteenth day and night in a row, and being sick

[Whight]

Eh, it wasn't so much that I minded as being alone for the umpteenth day and night in a row, and being sick

I hear ya. Being alone has it's good parts, but it also has a ton of bad parts.
A big house gets way too creepy way too easily when you're alone in it.
And when you're sick, it's even worse.
I remember one time I was kinda stuck to bed due to a bad flu, I woke up and yelled for my parents, completely forgetting they're not here anymore.
Delirious ftw.

[Karkat]

I hear ya. Being alone has it's good parts, but it also has a ton of bad parts.
A big house gets way too creepy way too easily when you're alone in it.
And when you're sick, it's even worse.
I remember one time I was kinda stuck to bed due to a bad flu, I woke up and yelled for my parents, completely forgetting they're not here anymore.
Delirious ftw.

Hah yeah, gotta love that :(

[Whight]

Hah yeah, gotta love that :(

So, were you alone this christmas? Or did you get to spend it with someone?

[Karkat]

So, were you alone this christmas? Or did you get to spend it with someone?

Nah, I was alone. Parents were out, boyfriend was spending it with family.

I'll be ringing in the new year with him a day early though

[CuteGuy889]

I too fear this Christmas + New year...All my family and friends will get to see my new chubby self....They all will commnet how skinny I used to be and will be embarrasing..(Last christmas I was abt 10 kilos lighter..... in 1.5 yrs my waist went from 25 in to 36, face plumped up, , grew a bubble butt too....and I have gone from 48 kg to 65 kg at 5 foot 11.)........ nw I have a small tummy roll, cannot run etc like when I was skinny, and have sm man-boobies....but,despite all changes, i never succumed to anorexia/bulimea..

I feel sooo embarrasing whn family & friends point at & tease abt my new weight....and how skiinny I used to be.....I turn beet red in the face.

And not like in Christmases I had when I was skinny now I have to see what I am eating...although still looking skinny my body is now skinny - fat and tend to put on very easyly...Gone is my teen metabolism

[Whight]

I too fear this Christmas + New year...All my family and friends will get to see my new chubby self....They all will commnet how skinny I used to be and will be embarrasing..(Last christmas I was abt 10 kilos lighter..... in 1.5 yrs my waist went from 25 in to 36, face plumped up, , grew a bubble butt too....and I have gone from 48 kg to 65 kg at 5 foot 11.)........ nw I have a small tummy roll, cannot run etc like when I was skinny, and have sm man-boobies....but,despite all changes, i never succumed to anorexia/bulimea..

I feel sooo embarrasing whn family & friends point at & tease abt my new weight....and how skiinny I used to be.....I turn beet red in the face.

And not like in Christmases I had when I was skinny now I have to see what I am eating...although still looking skinny my body is now skinny - fat and tend to put on very easyly...Gone is my teen metabolism

You shouldn't feel bad. Your body is what it is. So what if you gained a bit. Doesn't sound like much, and you are growing up, so it's only natural to gain a few more.
If you enjoyed eating, you should be happy and ignore them.

But if it really bothers you, just work out and tone it up so it'll look better. Once you have abs, the weight won't really show. I weigh about as much as you, and same height and I don't feel chubby at all.

Nah, I was alone. Parents were out, boyfriend was spending it with family.

I'll be ringing in the new year with him a day early though

What did you have planned with him? Me and the bf are thinking of going down to NYC. But I fear it'll be so crowded and full of people that we won't really be enjoying it as much as we should.

[Karkat]

You shouldn't feel bad. Your body is what it is. So what if you gained a bit. Doesn't sound like much, and you are growing up, so it's only natural to gain a few more.
If you enjoyed eating, you should be happy and ignore them.

But if it really bothers you, just work out and tone it up so it'll look better. Once you have abs, the weight won't really show. I weigh about as much as you, and same height and I don't feel chubby at all.



What did you have planned with him? Me and the bf are thinking of going down to NYC. But I fear it'll be so crowded and full of people that we won't really be enjoying it as much as we should.

Well tbh we're gonna get crossfaded and bang because it's a small town and there's nothing to do here

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Hope you have fun though

[Whight]

Honestly?
Yours sounds like a much better plan than ours. :)

[Celtics]

I know it's an unpopular opinion and all. But Christmas is really the worst time of the year and I hate when it comes around.
I'm most depressed during it and I get to the edge as far as suicidal thoughts go.
Thankfully I didn't try anything this year thanks to constant calls from my boyfriend to check in on me. Literally sends me a msg every minute and calls once an hour. I never thought i'd get tired to hear his voice, but if I don't answer he'll freak out :S.

It's just... Such a difficult holiday. Is anyone else here having a hard time through it? I could use some understanding company to talk to.

Yeah, feel the same. Family issues just get worse and the real in people come out. Not kicking your cousins ass because he touched your sister when we were a lot younger. I would fucking kill him if I could, no one misses with my family even if I don't always like them.

[Whight]

Yeah, feel the same. Family issues just get worse and the real in people come out. Not kicking your cousins ass because he touched your sister when we were a lot younger. I would fucking kill him if I could, no one misses with my family even if I don't always like them.

I suppose it's problematic when he is your family.
But yeah, sounds awkward to be forced to be with people you don't like.

Both my parents were only children, so I don't have any uncles or aunts. My parents friends are kinda like my uncle and aunt, but they work all the time so no kids and all that.
Though, i think they're planning on one soon enough, now that they're done taking care of me.